Catherine

Beautiful❤️

I know I know, I havent updated in a while when I said I would be. Rest assured, updates will be coming. I just haven't been on wattpad in a while cause so much has been happening and it's been really hard for me to actually focus on anything. My attention span is honestly terrible. I have recently and FINALLY been diagnosed with EUPD (usually known as BPD but they're changing the name to actually fit with what the illness is).
          And so, my focus has just been non existent, but I am determined to get back to my writing. 
          Thank you for being so patient all the time <3

Hi guys, I hope you all had a lovely Christmas and New Year's. I will be posting the next chapter soon dont worry. I haven't posted an update in a while as it was just such a busy Christmas period and even now I'm still overwhelmed and my mental health has taken a hit again. In all honesty, I haven't actually written for a while but I definitely plan to soon. I've had a few messages asking if the story has been discontinued and the answer is no it hasn't so don't worry. As I've said before, when I haven't written much then I try not to post chapters too often otherwise I'll run out of the pre written chapters. But a new chapter will be coming soon and thank you all for your patience❤️

Bonus chapter is out 

Okay, I know I said ages ago I would do a bonus chapter full of smut for my most recent chapter. It is coming (as will meredith be oi oi) ;) but it's just taking a little longer to write cause I've been so busy lately

As requested for my most recent chapter, I'm gonna be doing a BONUS chapter for it.. and it'll be smutty

Chapter 37 is now written, its a long one, over 5100 words. Oh and it has drama. Once again, it's another one that I'm so excited to release

An update following on from what I wrote on here yesterday evening. I went for my emergency mental health assessment. They have put my meds up to the highest dose, I need to go back to CMHT asap so they will be contacting me within the next 24 hours, I need intense therapy for my PTSD, including EMDR therapy, shoutout to Jo Wilson bc before her I didn't know what that was. They've got another diagnosis for me, they just need CMHT to confirm it, some new meds for that when I get my diagnosis, and then I have to go back next week for another assessment to decide if I am safe to be at home or in the community or whether they need to intervene asap and get me on a ward since I relapsed again yesterday and this morning. So it's alllll going on. BUT, the plus side of feeling like this, it's got me writing so many chapters, it's my way of coping and so I've spent the last few days just writing my story as a way to get through the day and it's definitely helping me <3

I seem to be in a bit of another crisis lol. I'm going to try my best to keep updates coming, I've been writing all day to keep myself occupied and because it helps me. But because I have relapsed again and a load of other things, tomorrow morning I'm having an emergent mental health assessment where they're gonna decide whether I'm safe to be at home and in the community or whether I need to go somewhere else. So fingers crossed tomorrow goes okay and I don't have to be admitted anywhere. But I'm gonna do my best to keep the updates regular. The chapters I've been writing recently, like not to toot my own horn or anything, are pretty damn good and I'm quite excited about them so I really wanna get the other chapters out so I can release the ones I've been writing cause I really am quite proud

So the other day I said how I sat down to write Chapter 34 (I pre-write the chapters) and basically struggled since it had been a while since I last sat down and wrote. Well, I finished writing it today, and then wrote Chapter 35 too. Chapter 35 is only around 2600 words even though I've been aiming to do more. But I'm honestly so proud of it! The temptation to just released the next 10 or so chapters in one go just so I can share that chapter with you all, is intense lol. 
          
          
          Hate to disappoint, but I wont actually do that. But I do hope people stick around long enough to be able to read it when it is actually released.