Reader_1926

For those who are wondering;
          
          I am still taking a hiatus on Wattpad and only posting my chapters every Thursday. I'm doing this since I am dealing with many financial and family problems in my house.
          
          So sorry to bother y'all but I just wanted to say this before people think I;m dead or something-

Okay— So I tried sleeping for a full 24 hours. But that didn't go well since my body didn't let me, so I only slept for 15 hours.
          
          The bad thing is— My body feels very weak, and I'm shaking a bit. Since last night, I didn't ate dinner and just went to sleep. So my body is craving food and water.
          
          Just hoping that my breakfast is enough to keep me going today-

So I was fcking late for four days of the newest chapter of The Promised Neverland/Yakusoku no Neverland; or should I fxcking say, the LAST chapter.
          
          So I'm currently crying my eyes out because of it. LIKE THE ENDING IS GREAT BUT I ALSO DON'T LIKE IT SINCE EMMAAAAAAAAAAA. But good for her and her family, BUT I AM STILL SAD- The anime that I liked so much just ended and I can't even cope with this shxt-

!VENT WARNING!
          
          Being part of the LGBTQIA+ community is really hard for me. Especially since I'm currently figuring which part of the asexual spectrum I identify.
          
          Like I'm also scared of what I'll say to my friends and sister about what I'll identify by the end of this. Since I'm sure I'll be judged if I say I'm lithromantic, myrsexual/romantic, omniacepomo, or just pomosexual that isn't even in the a-spectrum. Oh heck! I am just so frustrated and confused on what I really identify myself as just the part of the community itself!
          
          I thought I already figured it out; that I'm a panromantic asexual. But because of the feelings that resurfaced from what I thought was my 'former' crush, the past crushes and feelings I didn't realize 'til now, and the information and knowledge that I very much lacked about the asexual community. The very community I identified myself in and thought I already knew a decent amount of.
          
          So if the person that follows or knows me were questioning why I haven't been in books that I always read or type back in the comments of those books- It's mostly because of this.
          
          I'm taking a timeout on Wattpad to just figure myself out before my dreaded birthday/enrollment comes. I just hope that by the end of this, I can be full of pride and mostly acceptance in what I'll identify myself.

I now have no dignity to show myself to a fanfiction that I read.
          
          2018 Me said in a comment that I like incest and have no FXCKING shame on saying that.
          
          I DO NOT FXCKING AGREE WITH THAT AND I DO NOT SUPPORT IT. I do not know how I even said something like that.
          
          Like what the actual fxck is wrong with ke back then—

If there is anyone that wants to talk about Yakusoku no Neverland/The Promised Neverland, I am WILLING to talk to you since I just want someone to talk with over the latest chapter 180.
          
          Like boi— I AM WILLING TO START A RIOT IF EMMA AND THE GANG/FAMILY DOESN'T GET AT LEAST A HAPPY ENDING— Like come on! They've been through enough creators. At least cut them some slack-

STORYTIME! I almost started fxckin' crying today—
          
          Like my frickin' old a** gadget wouldn't start opening no matter what I did. I tried to click the 'power off' and nothin happened. It only showed a plain white background and it didn't even let the wifi, time, or battery percentage to be seen.
          
          I started fxckin' panicking since there's A LOT of important stuff/storage I have in my gadget that isn't in our family laptop. I haven't been on Wattpad lately since I was busy on learning to edit covers/icons for things I like or Books I'll do. So it REALLY worried me when connect my gadget to the laptop to try and get some stuff I saved. AND IT DIDN'T FXCKIN' WORKED.
          
          But luckiky, when I connected my gadget to the laptop and started clicking random buttons— It magically showed me the wifi, time, amd battery percentage. Then when I dragged upwards the 'control center'(AppleGadget-), if showed me my lock screen!
          
          I was SO relieved when it did, I was starting to worry that I would start bawlin' if it didn't open- Hahahah
          
          I'm sure that whoever reads this, thinks that why I would start worryin' over some gadget that's not more or as important than other things in life. Well that's because of the storage stuff I said and where this is my ONLY gadget left, something that kept me emotionally calm through everything. My gadget was the ONE thing I could turn to if one of my many daily problems hits me or even break me. It's the only thing I have that could actually entertain me and keep me happy in my own fantasyland, 'much' better than the land I'm living in.

T^T If there's one thing The Promised Neverland gave me, is to not be attached to characters like AOT since there's a big chance of major character deaths.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm still crying in my bed—

Why is The Promised Neverland so cruel? The latest chapter got me into tears like what the hell-
          
          Like creators; you just brought her back into the story and y'all gonna take her away? They're really playing with my emotions now—
          
          
          
          
          
          And oh, yay to me that the wifi is still up and runnin' like normal. Yay!

Fxck me gently with a chainsaw! Imma just be straightforward with this. The wifi in my house is going to be cut off in May 15 since you know, bills and shxt is hard to do when you don't have a job since you're a student and your parents are struggling to put money and food on the table.
          
          So in other words, I'm going to be offline until I can have access to wifi again or my dad allows me to use his phone that can get data. I'm just going to download videos and movies today and publish my chapter tomorrow, I'll also place a shxt ton of Books in my library so I can atleast read something while I'm in no wifi quarantine.
          
          See you next time guys and I hope this will be just soon, since I still have online school to deal with-