ChaosEraX

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Don't know how many people remember me, but I used to be a half-way popular author in the Aphmau fandom. I've since left that disgusting and toxic fandom after realizing not only how awful the community was but because of the stories and videos themselves seemingly having no love put into them. 
          	
          	This isn't a "time to bitch about how Aphmau was and still seems to be a shitty author who can't seem to realize that appeasing the masses only resulted in her tearing own community apart," rant, maybe I'll do that somewhere else. This is a message to all the old and maybe even ongoing authors still in this fandom.
          	
          	What the fuck were ANY of you and me thinking. I remember vividly reading fucking CP between Aaron (age 6) and his dad and no one thought it was fucked up at the time. The stories on this site, both in this fandom and out of it, are disgusting and romanticize and sexualize mental illness, sexuality, and abusive relationships. 
          	
          	I'm not sure if the fandom has gotten better and frankly I don't give a shit either. This entire site is a cesspool and disgusting works of art covered up loosely with the bullshit excuses of "it's just fiction!!" and "fiction doesn't effect reality!!" when it most certainly does.
          	
          	Please for the love of God, look at what you're reading and think about it. Reading and writing depictions of abuse and mental illness as "quirky" or "they just need to work it out uwu" is gross and anyone who continues to write this shit should be ashamed. 
          	
          	Not to mention how this website turned into a fucking cash grab. Wattpad doesn't give a fuck about its community anymore, and honestly I doubt they ever have. Pay to read stories? Coins? Nah, I don't fuck with that.
          	
          	I think I'll end my rant here. I'm never writing on this site again. I'm not interested in Aphmau anymore and in fact hate her fandom.
          	
          	Sorry to have this just pop up in your notifications, but I know some people may be curious where some of the old Aphmau fanfic authors disappeared to.

fizzypepper

@ChaosEraX I'm glad you were able to open my eyes haha. It was a really messed up fandom and I'm glad I was able to drag myself out of it, with your verbal help with your posts on the matter. 
          	  
          	  Anyway, I won't ramble in further, thank you and I hope you have a good day also :)
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ChaosEraX

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@Maxcanart123 Apologies for the late response, but I'm glad someone else is able to see how horrible the fandom was and how disgusting. I'm also very ashamed about the things I wrote and it's why I've since drafted them and they will forever remain there. 
          	  
          	  I realized the issues with the fandom right after I quit Twitter and continued to realize how toxic it was and as I've grown up and looked back I've continued to see how bad it was. Clearing out my library was a huge indicator of this. The best thing any author or artist who participated in this kind of thing is to just simply take their work down and maybe issue apologies depending on the severity.
          	  
          	  I feel so ashamed of what I wrote. I was young, uneducated, and seeing your post on your profile is making me realize that I pushed a narrative to people possibly even younger then me or who looked up to me that these things were okay to sexualize and romanticize. So I also want to apologize to anyone who was influenced by my work, including you. I shouldn't have written those things, and even back then it felt wrong, but I wanted popularity and wrote disgusting things without thinking about the consequences. I'm glad you were able to realize how fucked up that fandom was and the disgusting romanticism within it and got out of there. Best wishes and I hope you have a great day.
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fizzypepper

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@ChaosEraX  Finally someone who understands this shit! The fandom was toxic as hell and I'm not even sure what the fuck the books were as well. You're right, they were absolutely disgusting. I'm ashamed I used to write those as well. I'm glad you've come out and talked about this because seeing this helped me solidify the fact I have left that toxic and overall disgusting fandom. I hope you are doing well, as well. Have a lovely day, and thank you for realizing this as well as me.
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ChaosEraX

this message may be offensive 
Don't know how many people remember me, but I used to be a half-way popular author in the Aphmau fandom. I've since left that disgusting and toxic fandom after realizing not only how awful the community was but because of the stories and videos themselves seemingly having no love put into them. 
          
          This isn't a "time to bitch about how Aphmau was and still seems to be a shitty author who can't seem to realize that appeasing the masses only resulted in her tearing own community apart," rant, maybe I'll do that somewhere else. This is a message to all the old and maybe even ongoing authors still in this fandom.
          
          What the fuck were ANY of you and me thinking. I remember vividly reading fucking CP between Aaron (age 6) and his dad and no one thought it was fucked up at the time. The stories on this site, both in this fandom and out of it, are disgusting and romanticize and sexualize mental illness, sexuality, and abusive relationships. 
          
          I'm not sure if the fandom has gotten better and frankly I don't give a shit either. This entire site is a cesspool and disgusting works of art covered up loosely with the bullshit excuses of "it's just fiction!!" and "fiction doesn't effect reality!!" when it most certainly does.
          
          Please for the love of God, look at what you're reading and think about it. Reading and writing depictions of abuse and mental illness as "quirky" or "they just need to work it out uwu" is gross and anyone who continues to write this shit should be ashamed. 
          
          Not to mention how this website turned into a fucking cash grab. Wattpad doesn't give a fuck about its community anymore, and honestly I doubt they ever have. Pay to read stories? Coins? Nah, I don't fuck with that.
          
          I think I'll end my rant here. I'm never writing on this site again. I'm not interested in Aphmau anymore and in fact hate her fandom.
          
          Sorry to have this just pop up in your notifications, but I know some people may be curious where some of the old Aphmau fanfic authors disappeared to.

fizzypepper

@ChaosEraX I'm glad you were able to open my eyes haha. It was a really messed up fandom and I'm glad I was able to drag myself out of it, with your verbal help with your posts on the matter. 
            
            Anyway, I won't ramble in further, thank you and I hope you have a good day also :)
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ChaosEraX

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@Maxcanart123 Apologies for the late response, but I'm glad someone else is able to see how horrible the fandom was and how disgusting. I'm also very ashamed about the things I wrote and it's why I've since drafted them and they will forever remain there. 
            
            I realized the issues with the fandom right after I quit Twitter and continued to realize how toxic it was and as I've grown up and looked back I've continued to see how bad it was. Clearing out my library was a huge indicator of this. The best thing any author or artist who participated in this kind of thing is to just simply take their work down and maybe issue apologies depending on the severity.
            
            I feel so ashamed of what I wrote. I was young, uneducated, and seeing your post on your profile is making me realize that I pushed a narrative to people possibly even younger then me or who looked up to me that these things were okay to sexualize and romanticize. So I also want to apologize to anyone who was influenced by my work, including you. I shouldn't have written those things, and even back then it felt wrong, but I wanted popularity and wrote disgusting things without thinking about the consequences. I'm glad you were able to realize how fucked up that fandom was and the disgusting romanticism within it and got out of there. Best wishes and I hope you have a great day.
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fizzypepper

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@ChaosEraX  Finally someone who understands this shit! The fandom was toxic as hell and I'm not even sure what the fuck the books were as well. You're right, they were absolutely disgusting. I'm ashamed I used to write those as well. I'm glad you've come out and talked about this because seeing this helped me solidify the fact I have left that toxic and overall disgusting fandom. I hope you are doing well, as well. Have a lovely day, and thank you for realizing this as well as me.
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ChaosEraX

Another update. I'm leaving for a while. I'm deleting Wattpad off my phone, so if you need to contact me, go through here:
          
          Twitter: 
          SkySorceressYT
          
          Sorry. Also, I will come back. This means none of you have my permission to use my stuff. 
          
          Peace.

ChaosEraX

Hey guys, just wanted to say I have some bad news.
          
          I won't be updating for a while. How long? Well, honestly, I have no idea. Let me explain:
          
          Awhile ago, my cat Kitten (yeah, that's his actual name because we couldn't come up with a name that would stick) possibly broke his tail. He couldn't be walk probably, let alone jump. Just for background knowledge, he's an indoor-outdoor cat, so no one knows what happens to him out there. Well, Wednesday morning, he went out (which I wasn't very happy about), and didn't come back that night. We didn't think anything really of it, until the second night, in which I went out first to look for him, then my dad, then my mom. No where in sight.
          
          The next morning...we found him. He had dragged himself inside somehow and my sister and I found him in the living room closest. His back legs were unusable.
          
          Push come to shove, my mom and I took him to the vet and well...we had to put him down.
          
          This has hit me hard. I've been crying all day, and I just...I can't write for a while. I hope you all understand.

garranceschld4576

@SkySorceressWrites its okay, i know your pain because my two pets (cat and dog named Cinnamon and Shelby) had problems with their immune system and we had to put both down. I was four when this happened so it hit me really hard. Im so sorry for your loss.
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