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@xiaomoncrush Thank you so much! I'm glad you like it!!
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How would you guys feel if I wrote a book in this style?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxMcos6Y6KE
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I default to writing stories about trauma in my creative writing class because it’s what I know. It’s what I can trust to fall back on when my grade is dependent on such a thing. If I had the choice to write without any penalty, I would still write about trauma. Just in the form of people already recovering or mostly recovered from it, odds are. That’s an inherent part of who I am, but I’m kind of exhausted with writing sob stories that other people are inspired by. Part of me just wants to show the world the kinds of stuff I write intimately, about tired people recovered from awful environments being clumsy and kind of dumb sometimes, and just seeing their lover and tripping while they gawk in simple morning bliss.
Those stories take far more dedication for me to see through, though.
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@Wow-Its-Sunny I already have a therapist! Have had him for awhile now, on my own terms. This is college luckily (I take college classes alongside my highschool ones!), and you can write freely about a lot more things. My last series of personal essays for a different writing class was about my trauma and the gradual recovery from it!
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Some of the most bitter work and pain comes from making your own life better and less difficult later down the line.
You have to be honest with yourself, gentle towards yourself, encouraging, sincere, and so much more just to build a better version of you. To be the version who is able to be there for yourself and others in a way that you cannot currently be.
That hurts so much when you aren't in a good place already.
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I recently went on a camping trip where I found a poem book in a really queer-friendly area, and I’ve been opening it to random pages again and again every day to see what it has to say. Every page feels so personal and relatable.
Today it was
“You just have to surround yourself with people who have the same heart as you.”
I recently had an epiphany of sorts in that small town.
I’m miserable here.
The happiness I felt picturing a life and feeling the absolute acceptance I felt there cannot hold a candle to the sheer suckiness of the judgment and bigotry I feel here living with my rapist, and I want out. Even a bad life out there is better than a half-decent life stuck here with him and the callousness of this bullshity bible belt
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@DocDocDetestable no worries, and thank YOU this made me so happy! I’ve always felt like it doesn’t hurt at all to just be nice, at my lowest times I’ve always been grateful to those who’ve be en kind to me and support me, and I try to do that for others too because it’s so simple but makes a huge difference, doesn’t matter if ik irl or not hehe :) and I’m glad you feel better now. Hope life is treating you well!
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@CrispyCreamTaco Hey! I didn't read this until recently due to focusing more on my college and playing more videogames, but this really helped me to read! Thanks for always being such a supportive person online! It takes a lot of goodness to remains a good person, even when you're freely anonymous! You make the world a better place, and I'm glad to have hope and faith in others still because of that sort of unrelenting kindness!
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@DocDocDetestable I’m so sorry that happened to you, it’s so heartbreaking that some people get so upset with other people just wanting to be themselves :( and to go to the extent of SA is just so so so horrible and downright disgusting, I can’t imagine what you must’ve gone through. I hope you’re doing better now and that one day you get to your safe place- you’re not at all selfish for wanting to be happy and feel accepted. And I know the world sucks but just remember that there are people in this world for whom you matter so much, be brave for them and most importantly yourself, and hopefully you’ll find yourself truly happy and in a safe environment in the coming future <3
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Do you publish on Neobook ?
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Kel is such a homiesexual
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Hello, I'm sorry for disturbing you but I'd like to recommend you this amazing poem book written by my friend! :)
Hope you have a great day!
https://www.wattpad.com/story/345881220?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=lowkey_flynn&wp_originator=5Y2LBrkelNclPzMK5OvYROnm3zBt0pz8GjEHOwcWzhHUUsw8yAJcOguguE1Tl1qf2FjEBTUzKG27FUqcMsmXjG2D3gmIsBjBAWUUNUHEMOvLOIvKQtZbqDd%2FBlR7PpD8
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@daisiesgrace_ Oh cool, I haven't seen that one before! I'll check it out!! Thanks for the vibe!! >:3
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I might get up and finally try writing the final draft of that one fanfic I’ve had in the works for ages now…
Summer IS getting closer to being over..
It’d be nice to have something to show for it all, so I can look back and feel kind of motivated and accomplished!
That, and I need to get out of my own head, and onto some paper. It’d be cool if I could have one of those fanfics with regular releases. Maybe even find a lot of readers! the interaction part is honestly one of my favorite bits of everything,,
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@DocDocDetestable of course, you’re so talented and also so sweet! And that sounds quite interesting actually, something different and refreshing. And honestly at the end of the day, you’re writing for YOURSELF, if other people happen to enjoy it then great! Most importantly YOU should feel good about your writing <3 I’ll be honest lol i don’t really read fanfics about things im not a fan of- like if you get what I’m saying lmao, kinda lost when I don’t know anything about the fandom haha. And don’t worry- I don’t HAVE to read your work but I WANT to, by choice…and if I can’t I’ll definitely be here existing hehe, I feel the same, wattpad is actually just a nice community for me now more than the writing, you’re a part of it of course
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@CrispyCreamTaco HGFHGFHGF OH AND ALSO, you really don't have to read my stuff! Sometimes, just knowing that you're doing good and seeing you have a nice time, or just existing through life is enough! You're incredible inspiring, just by being around and making the vibes all supportive and pleasant!
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There was another poem I was meant to publish. It’s called “-ACAB-“, and I wasn’t satisfied with the message I was sending.
That, and it had like- way too many cusses and mature themes for its own good.
Additionally, I don’t want to get outwardly political despite being a person who’s relatively engaged with politics and human rights, because then people might discredit my other work or get inflamed over something like me saying that I think police being some of the most dangerous people you can encounter day-to-day in america is a perfect example of a major oversight within our “justice” system. That’s something I still really firmly believe in, especially as a victim of sexually assault who was literally FORGOTTEN by the system after being raped for 6+ years, but I really don’t want to deal with potential harassment over something like that getting out of my typical audience (as unlikely as that is, since my poems don’t exactly trend here)