I have an announcement to make.
This is my last post here as Elli, as I have decided to shut this account down. And I want to tell you one last thing.
I am so grateful for this year. I'm thankful for all the support I've received and the experiences I've had during this time. I appreciate every moment with you guys.
I feel like I need to explain myself. At any rate, I feel like I have to do it at the end, even if no one really cares. The last year has been tough. My life was literally divided into Before and After, and I don't want to go into details, but it was hard for me, as it is now. My activity has plummeted, and when I opened a new covershop, confident that I would be able to delight you with good and quality covers at least once a month, I didn't think it would turn out this way. I got bogged down in my studies and almost drowned in it all as well as in my problems. As much as it sounds like I was taking on too much responsibility while being afraid of falling and crashing. It all ended up leading to the fact that even if I wanted to, I couldn't touch a graphic editor, and even if I could, nothing good came of it.
Honestly, the Elli that made the covers for you last year isn't the same anymore. I've lost my style, I've lost my skills, so it's not as satisfying as it used to be, and everything comes out of my hands like a failure. I don't think I can do anything worthwhile at this point. I've gave it a try, I've tried so hard, but nothing comes out.
I was ashamed to disappear like that for months on end. I'm sorry it turned out this way.
I have even more stress ahead of me than I have right now. The state exam, university, making all those same fragile dreams come true. And to get rid of all the problems that were the consequence of the war, which almost a year ago destroyed all my former existence.
As of this moment, I must consider our paths parted, but I am very grateful to all of you for being with me all this time.
Sincerely,
Elli
