Ebrowning_writes

Also, side note: I am completely tripping out over the fact that Spotify has an AI DJ. I think this dude is my new best friend because it does SUCH A GOOD JOB

Y'all!! Heyyyyyyy. =D 
          
          So, I know I ain't been on here in 40 damn forevers. I apologize for that. Sincerely. Honestly. For real. I mean it. 
          
          So ummm... Here's an update if anyone is interested, given the last time I posted was sometime last August: 
          I've been doing a LOT of work on myself. Emotionally/mentally, that is. I've been dealing with some hardcore depression, a few identity crises, the last set of hurricanes that left damage on my house that STILL hasn't been repaired (and It's hurricane season again.. yay.. *cue sarcasm*) Went through this whole thing where I was trying to decide whether I even wanted to keep writing, and.... 
          
          Well, I think I'm in a *slightly* better state now. Depression/anxiety/identity crisis is still a thing, but at least the ideas for a potential story are still there. 
          
          As a matter of fact, I'm working on a whole new set of character sheets. With that being said, I have a question: 
          
          The current story concept is Gaslamp fantasy-meets-Warehouse 13. With promises of half-elves, vampires, witches/wizards, other supernatural creatures, love drama, betrayal, secrets, and a cute little squirrel-like creature with antennae that has levitation abilities named Fluffy. 
          
          Would anyone be interested in reading that? Because I'm totally thinking of making it a series.

Completely unrelated to anything story/writing related BUT... 
          
          The Summoning-Sleep Token. I just discovered this song and it's tickling a happy place in my brain.

Y'all.... 
          
          So I gave myself a writing exercise simply because I have had no desire to write for months whatsoever. The idea behind this being that maybe if I force my brain to make words, more words will come. Right? 
          
          Well, this exercise is in the form of a Harmony (Harry/Hermione) fic that is totally, 1000% completely wish-fulfillment. 
          I had my neighbor read the little bit I've got written--little being a prologue and half of a 1st chapter--and when she got done reading it, she was rioting and telling me that she wanted to hit me upside my head with her shoe, quoting "YOU'RE JUST OUT HERE RUINING LIVES FOR NO REASON!" 
          
          ..... Best. Review. Ever.

Hello, everyone. Ladies, gents, other individuals of whose pronouns I'm not aware of... 
          
          I'm more or less treating this as something of a diary entry, and you all can feel free to do that as well. As I do not keep a diary, getting this off my chest in this way is about the best I can do. 
          
          I know I haven't written or updated or done... well... anything in quite a long time. While there is no excuse for that, I feel the need to explain myself anyway. I don't know if anyone is going to read this, or care for that matter, but this one little post is more for me than anything. 
          
          I've been struggling. Hard. I seem to have lost the motivation to write or keep up with the basic mechanics of day-to-day life, and ended up getting lost for months in reading which is more of escapism from real life than anything. 
          
          But just a minute ago, something clicked, and GODS I hope it sticks for longer than the amount of time it takes to read this post, because I seem to have a problem following through with decisions that I make these days. 
          
          But I had a "squirrel" and did a Google search on my old pen name only to find that apparently somebody out there recommended Blood and Ink, an old fanfic I wrote, under a reddit post where the OP requested their "favorite lesser-known fics" and that threw me for a loop. I nearly cried over it. Even more so because I took all my fanfictions down and deleted them. They're still in the recycle bin, I think, but I digress. 
          
          I had no idea I was making an impact on anybody or that anybody really gave a shit about the little drabbles typed out on my laptop. It then occurred to me that perhaps the silence isn't quite as damning as I thought. And that's encouraging. It really is. It might possibly be a sign that this author should step back into her roots, which is writing for the fun of it instead of focusing on building up a name. Gods, writing hasn't been truly FUN in ages. And that should have said something.

Hey dear,
          Sorry for posting without your consent.
          But can you Check out my book and give your valuable feedback.
          Thank you.. If you do, It'll really mean a lot to me.. 
          
          Hope! I didn't wasted your time..❤️❤️
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/368069080?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Serene_gaze25

Hi! I’ve start a new book! Just take a look on it, and please give me feedback? I actually really want to grow this book to be very well written. 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/368138903-the-assassins-life

So, while I'm plotting out the next several chapters, I'm also putting together some goodies for a future printed version of TRB. =) I'm talking bringing the maps over, bonus chapters, a glossary of the footnotes I've left here for you guys in the A/N's, and extra goodies in between the chapters that I'm sure y'all will love. 
          
          I'm so stoked I want a copy for myself. Will anyone else want one or is it just me?

I'm seriously considering officially publishing "The Reaper's Bride" when it's completed. I mean, I want a hard copy for myself (obviously), but my question is... 
          
          Would any of you want a copy? I'm thinking of including extra content (maybe some extra chapters, shit that possibly wasn't seen from the other's POV, that kinda thing); the maps will be a part of it, glossary of info from here in the back of the book, etc. 
          
          If not, it's cool. I just want a copy for myself and I wanted to know if anybody else would want one.

Today would have been my dad's 81st birthday. 
          Ten years he's been gone and it still feels like less than ten days. 
          I am not okay. I don't know how I'm going to get anything written today >.<