Fan-Girl+Nerd=DisastrouslyAwesome

I am afraid. Yet, I want to take the biggest leap of my life. Will you be there on the other side?

Though I am scared. I believe things will be different this time.

I feel safe. A type of security I haven't felt in a long time.

Why am I so emotionally charged;
          tears spill for you. And yet I don't know your soul.

I was a bit enmored with you. If we had kept talking. If I hadn't retreated due to her, would I have learned that I have feelings? Would we be somewhere different now?

For if we have to say goodbye, 
          know it is your fault we've come to this. That it is due to your lack of courage and work ethic that we reached this point. 
          I will forgive you, only because we shall never connect again and become strangers. If my eyes ever grace your guise, I shall see what's on the surface and I won't dive any further.

You told me how you failed me by putting me in a box. Just like many woman before you. I wonder if that was happenstance or a fact of womanhood.

Those were gut punches.

Don't you understand how much hurt you've poured into me?
          
          I've given you all I had to offer.
          
          And what did you give me in return?
          
          I can't keep giving you instructions on how to Tango.
          
          You don't listen. 
          
          And it takes two.

I can't unhear it
          Don't unwrite it
          Want you to apologize
          You didn't though
          As you spoke unblinking
          My heart broke
          Best wishes
          Friend that once was my home