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I am so immensely upset, confused, angry, and disappointed in him.
It took me a while to accept it, as I’m sure it took everyone. Even now, I’m still having difficulty processing it. He has done so much to help me cope with all the stuff I’ve been through over the past few years. I trusted him - we ALL trusted him. I THOUGHT he was safe. But apparently I was wrong.
I’m not really sure what to do with this account now. I’ve taken down all content that I could find related to him (please let me know if there’s anything I missed), but I’m not quite sure how I’ll move forward. So much of this account was dedicated to him. He had motivated me to learn to draw, to write more, to create… he motivated me in ways nobody and nothing else has. I flooded my brain with so many ideas surrounding him, most based on various pieces of media, and now I feel as though I’ll be unable to enjoy any of those films, books, or songs anymore because of what he’s done.
I haven’t been very active on here in a while, and maybe that was for the best, since nothing will really change. But it still hurts me, knowing so many of my happiest memories are now tainted by him. Shit’s gotten really difficult for me lately. I’ve barely been able to go a day without some sort of suicidal ideation plaguing me, and I have no idea how I’ll be able to recover from this knowing that Sorry has been pretty much my only savior. Any suggestions at all would be incredibly helpful.
What he did was disgusting. It makes me sick. I hope that Shubble will be able to heal and move forward after all that shit he put her through. Wishing her all the love and happiness in the world <3
Sincerely,
Freckles