HammerOfRage

Right, so... the one-shot isn't happening anytime soon. Wish I could just blame it on my playing the game too much, but no; my mental health took a dive, and I'm back to square one.
          	
          	I want to go back to last summer when I was excited to write. Now, no matter how badly I want to, I have nothing and just hate myself more with each passing day.

esther_carmichael

@ HammerOfRage  And you're wrong, I'd read this one shot 
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esther_carmichael

@ HammerOfRage  I totally get you. Writer's block is a bitch and sucks the life out of you but I think that although it's the arch enemy or every writer, it also makes us strong. Maybe we aren't motivated and can't write anything at all for months or weeks but it doesn't mean that we want to stop. We keep pushing because we love what we do and for me this feeling makes me even more engaged in my works in progress. It hurts and it's one of the major reasons for my self loathing but it convinced me that the projects I'm working in are worth that struggle
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HammerOfRage

Not that anyone would have read it, anyway.
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HammerOfRage

Right, so... the one-shot isn't happening anytime soon. Wish I could just blame it on my playing the game too much, but no; my mental health took a dive, and I'm back to square one.
          
          I want to go back to last summer when I was excited to write. Now, no matter how badly I want to, I have nothing and just hate myself more with each passing day.

esther_carmichael

@ HammerOfRage  And you're wrong, I'd read this one shot 
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esther_carmichael

@ HammerOfRage  I totally get you. Writer's block is a bitch and sucks the life out of you but I think that although it's the arch enemy or every writer, it also makes us strong. Maybe we aren't motivated and can't write anything at all for months or weeks but it doesn't mean that we want to stop. We keep pushing because we love what we do and for me this feeling makes me even more engaged in my works in progress. It hurts and it's one of the major reasons for my self loathing but it convinced me that the projects I'm working in are worth that struggle
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HammerOfRage

Not that anyone would have read it, anyway.
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HammerOfRage

Okay, so... I have a confession to make.
          
          I said I was working on a one-shot of something I hadn't done before. It's still yandere, but not the point. Initially I was struggling because I couldn't get the hang of the character, so writing it was tough.
          
          Then I bought the game for myself and now I can't stop playing the damn thing. THAT'S why I haven't been writing anything.
          
          GALE DEKARIOS HAS CAPTURED MY HEART AND THAT'S WHY I HAVEN'T FINISHED THE ONE-SHOT.
          
          H E L P.

HammerOfRage

@Lumathedoggo I think everybody is. Don't get me wrong, I'm a sucker for him, but I think my heart belongs to the rizzard of Waterdeep.
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Lumathedoggo

Damn, I can't even blame you because I have also fallen into the bg3 fandom. Currently  obsessed with Astarion 
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Lumathedoggo

@SalyaDarken Gale Dekarios is a character from Baldurs Gate 3. I can't even blame them, BG3 won game of the year  I'm obsessed with it as well
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HammerOfRage

So I'm working on something new. Just a one-shot, but it's definitely not one I've done before.
          
          I'll give you guys a sneak peek:
          
          "As the world around us falls into madness, so too do our most innocent and beautiful intentions."

SalyaDarken

@HammerOfRage interesting. Can't wait.
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HammerOfRage

Thank you to everybody for being patient with me, and to those who hoped for my mental health to improve. I got a medication dosage increase, and I think it's what I needed. I feel SO much better, but I'm still holding off to see if it's a fluke (it shouldn't be).
          
          I know I've put pretty much every book on Hiatus because of this. Also because of lack of interest.
          
          However. I'm putting some books on hold because I want to combine them. I'm slowly trying to piece the plot together.
          
          In the meantime, I think I'm going to open requests for [REPEAT OFFENDERS]. I might not get everything done, but eh.
          
          I know most of you are waiting on Promotion updates, and I'm sorry. I'm not getting rid of it, I just have it on the back burner.
          
          Thank you! ♡♡♡

neww_York541

Take your time mental health matters the most 
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thatoneeulamain

@HammerOfRage YIPPE IM SO HAPPY THAT YOU ARE GETTING BETTER  
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inquisitior

@HammerOfRage Glad to know you are doing better, always make sure to have time for yourself and stay safe ❤️❤️
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HammerOfRage

I take it back. It's entirely my mental health. I don't know why my meds stopped working but I don't have an appointment with my psychiatrist until the end of the month.
          
          After so long of finally feeling like myself, it's hard to revert back all of a sudden. I don't know what's causing it.
          
          Sorry.

ymihere87

@HammerOfRage Hope ya get through this, mental health is a such a bitch.
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FoxysSideBitch

@HammerOfRage I'm sorry about that love, you got this tho! Keep going! We believe in you <3
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-NV_Writes-

@HammerOfRage I'm really sorry to hear that. I believe in you. Keep going. <3
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HammerOfRage

I haven't been doing all that well recently, so I'm going to take a step back for a little while.
          
          It's not because of my mental health, but at the same time it is. I'm just really, really discouraged. So I'm taking a break before I do something irrational or get even more upset with myself.
          
          Thanks for understanding. ♡

party9

@ HammerOfRage  rest and recover uwu
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FoxysSideBitch

@HammerOfRage Take as much time as you need! Hope things turn out better for you love! ☆
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SalyaDarken

@HammerOfRage aww. take as much time you need and I will miss you!
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HammerOfRage

Happy Holidays to whatever you celebrate, cubs.
          
          And if you don't, I still hope you have a good day! ♡

thatoneeulamain

@HammerOfRage happy holidays to you too!
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zaffytaffy3876

@HammerOfRage well it does sound like something gavin would reference lmaoao 
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Mar031101

@HammerOfRage Happy Holidays to you!
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HammerOfRage

Hey cubs, I think for the sake of my sanity, I'm gonna hold off on wanting to publish chapters of anything until the new year.
          
          I know that no one is putting pressure on me except myself, I just need a small break. I've been writing and publishing damn near every day since June, which... stuns me.
          
          Thanks for understanding ♡

thatoneeulamain

@HammerOfRage it's okay! Please take your time to rest and take care of yourself we can wait! :)
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GarotaMisterio0102

@HammerOfRage Its allright, when you came back we will still here waiting for you ♡
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zaffytaffy3876

Im astonished too seeing the daily publishings and pumpin out new books  have fun on your break bb <3
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