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I’m fresh out of the mental hospital. Life is weird in a good way now, but things got incredibly dark for a little while. I’m happy to be back home

Sorry I’ve been absent for so long. I broke up with my boyfriend of almost 3 years, I’m losing my job at the end of this month, and have now entered a weird Friends with Benefits thing with my best friend and I think I caught feelings so things are a little chaotic for me right now. I’ll try to be back with new content soon❤️

I’ve got something in the works I hope you guys are Greta fans✨

Author where are you :( 
          I miss you soo much and i hope you're doing great and i'm nor pushing you into update an all but just tell us if you're mental and physical health is okay please :( i'm getting worried T-T

I’m gonna be honest, I’m kinda drunk right now. I hope you guys are coping well with this whole COVID-19 thing and that you and your loved ones stay safe. The company I work for closed all of their stores nation wide I think... I’m getting paid although I’m not working which eases my worries about paying rent this month. I just want you all to stay happy and healthy during this stressful time. Try to avoid other people if you can help it and make sure to wash your hands frequently. I care about you all and want you all to stay safe amid this chaotic time.

Sometimes I feel like I don’t exist. I look in the mirror and don’t recognize myself and then go out around people and something inside me tells me that I’m the least interesting and most forgettable person in the room. I know it’s just my BPD getting to me, but I start distancing myself from everyone and see how long it is before anyone realizes I’m shutting down... and it honestly takes too long for comfort. It takes so long that I start convincing myself that bad things are happening to me. It fucks me up to an almost unbearable degree.

This isn’t related to my writing, but I wanted to share a very tense situation with you guys that happened to me today. 
          After I got off work I decided to walk my dog around the mall that I work in because it was hot and he’s a husky so being in a controlled climate was better for him.
          I decided to stop by GameStop to see if they had any animal crossing merch and I saw my ex with all of his friends.
          My dog is my emotional support animal so it’s good that he was with me because seeing him triggered a horrible anxiety attack. My ex was very physically, emotionally, verbally, and mentally abusive towards me during the on and off relationship we had.
          He raped me, hit me, manipulated me, and constantly used my mental illnesses as weapons against me.
          I didn’t speak to him, but I thought that after a year of not being with him I would never see his face again. It honestly made me anxious to the point I nearly passed out in front of everyone.
          I don’t know if you guys have ever experienced anything like that or gone through hardships of your own that you’re still getting over or are currently in, but I just want you to know I’m here for you guys. I know how difficult it can be to get past or let alone leave an abusive situation or relationship so if anyone ever needs to talk I’ll be here.

Hey I just logged in and I’m not sure what happened to Babysitter Wanted?? It COMPLETELY disappeared from my profile and my drafts and everything. I reported it to help services, but I believe that if my account has been hacked and someone deleted it there isn’t anything that can be done... I’m absolutely devastated. I have spent so much time working on building up that story for you guys and it was JUST getting to a great point of the plot. I’m so so sorry to everyone who has stuck by and kept up with my writing❤️

Hey guys! Just letting you know that I now have two jobs so I have a lot less time for writing these days and it may take longer for me to update than it has been as of recent. I’m really excited about the events going on in my life right now and I even got a raise and promotion this past week! Hopefully I can figure out some time where I can get back to writing for you guys soon, but I just ask that you hang tight until I figure everything out❤️

Sorry I’ve been so inactive until recently. I’ve been trying to make up for it by updating my most popular work a lot. I’ve published 3 new chapters in the past 3 days! I’m really happy to be getting back into my rhythm on here again. I’m going to keep working hard for you guys❤️