Hinata Nightheart

Well I live the life of pain. No friends that i trust. Family dieing left and right from cancer. I'm the only one in my town my school that dosent fit in. Never been happy after 4th grade iv been in depression. I am just a country girl an animal lover. I hunt for true love but i can't find it. I am just who i am to be honest that's all i want to be. I live in a small town in Illinois. Its really a village my school class that was my age was 12. Growing up in Alhambra. is like hell for kids like me. its nothing much but a place in a state. I am the girl in the town with goats a lama and donkey. I belive my pets my animals ae my only real friends. Growing up with a poor family it was pay cheak to paycheck.  I wear hand me down clothes becase my sister dosent ware them any more. I'm a Christian. I love watching animals grow up from babies. Iv been picked on ever since i started school. My dream is to one day fit in. I was once told my writeing was junk. My teacher at that time was the one that told me this. I am in hope of proveing her wrong. I don't care if i become and Arthur if i could only make one book and sell i would be happy. My real name is Ashlie. My past is dark so much of my life is in fear and pain. I will not give up my life even though it was tempting at times. I hope one day to be known by the world. Untill then I'm just a girl with dreams she most likely won't meet. In the end i wish to tell those like me that hope is all you need never end your self its not worth it. I know that for a fact i fit in now. I have found a few friends that are like me how ever its hard to change how you think about your self it is possible. with my new friends and people i can talk to its a lot easier to just be me. In the end i know that no matter what ill always be able to be my self. I hope to one day share my story even tho its not a happy one until the end of it.