Iceing_on_the_Crow

I swear every time I get a cg that I know I want but my regression just pushes them away and then I don’t have anyone to rely on much, and my boyfriend is also a regressor so I don’t want to put the pressure on him to watch me because that’s not his place and I also don’t want to push him away, like all the cgs I have had were amazing but i pushed them away which I get I’m in a fragile state and I’m being alone and just not listening to the cg most of the time when I’m upset or even too playful, I don’t know if this is a good coping mechanism if I keep doing that

Iceing_on_the_Crow

I swear every time I get a cg that I know I want but my regression just pushes them away and then I don’t have anyone to rely on much, and my boyfriend is also a regressor so I don’t want to put the pressure on him to watch me because that’s not his place and I also don’t want to push him away, like all the cgs I have had were amazing but i pushed them away which I get I’m in a fragile state and I’m being alone and just not listening to the cg most of the time when I’m upset or even too playful, I don’t know if this is a good coping mechanism if I keep doing that

Iceing_on_the_Crow

When you start feeling weird after he used the word grape (the other meaning.) around you to describe you,  as you soon feel 6 years old and you were with that man so you zone out and he leaves you for 30 minutes and laughs about you setting that boundary,

Iceing_on_the_Crow

I got results back and apparently there is no cure at all so I’m in therapy but there’s no guarantee that the pain won’t go away

Iceing_on_the_Crow

@berriibuttons_ it’s okay now I’ve now just now came to close with it 
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Iceing_on_the_Crow

Hi chat I might go uhhh black and white for a bit! Black and white for me means I’ll be on and off this acc since I have have been stuck with really horrible news and now realizing what has literally happened to me over now 3 years, I’ll try and reply to people but I’ll be mainly on TikTok and maybe even just.. deep coping?