I swear every time I get a cg that I know I want but my regression just pushes them away and then I don’t have anyone to rely on much, and my boyfriend is also a regressor so I don’t want to put the pressure on him to watch me because that’s not his place and I also don’t want to push him away, like all the cgs I have had were amazing but i pushed them away which I get I’m in a fragile state and I’m being alone and just not listening to the cg most of the time when I’m upset or even too playful, I don’t know if this is a good coping mechanism if I keep doing that