Someone told me to leave the past behind me, Yeah I said "Okay" But my past isn't behind me yet, Why? Because my life is on repeat, I try to change my life but every day of my life is controlled, No not by me, Someone else.
I say my "past" defines me yet it's still ongoing
But it does tell who I am
Doesn't it?
You say it's "Guiding" But no, It's "Controlling"
I hate it when people tell me "Don't lie to yourself" When I only lie to myself to block out the negativity...
I'll lie until I "die"
Or until I give up
I don't wanna be the one who has to end my life off but...It hurts...It's not going away...It won't stop...It's never ending...
I don't have anyone to go to...
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My regret almost got me hurting myself again, I mean I did but it wasn't any blood, But I deeply regret what...
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I'm lost, Where do I go? Do I kill myself then it'll be over? Is okay to take my own life? I have many questi...