JIN_AND_TONIC

ayo i swear i havent been ignoring yall, life got in the way and i have other things to focus on. 
          	
          	should i take down belong?

JIN_AND_TONIC

this message may be offensive
yo it has been a LONG fucking time
          
          a quick update on me:
          - my name is now sky
          - my pronouns are primarily xae/xaem but i also use they/them and sometimes he/him
          - im using ao3 as well
          - im probably gonna discontinue Belong because,,, tbh,,, i forgot it existed

nctbvbfan

@JIN_AND_TONIC Which ones to do feel the most comfortable with us using.
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JIN_AND_TONIC

I made a promise that I would do my very best to love myself, but I am failing miserably.
          
          I live in the UK, and things are bad here. The first lockdown we had was good for me - I was less stressed and I found home learning easier. However, this time around, my anxiety is through the roof.
          
          I feel trapped. It's like I'm stuck in this box and I can't get out. I can't leave the house because of COVID-19 . Because people don't care enough about others to follow the rules. Others like me.
          
          I'm struggling, so much. I can't keep doing this, the same routine, day in, day out. I feel like crying all the time. If I don't, I feel somewhat empty. I want to call out for help but something is stopping me.
          
          I swore that I would try my best to love myself but right now I cannot find it in me to.