💫 James/Jam 💫

You can blame @starthestardemon

ok ok wait if enough people see this and want me to ill repost the original broken series, all three gender versions, but none of them will be getting further updates

hey uh
          
          anyone out there?
          
          anyone who uh, maybe read my squip book back in the day?
          
          I am 21 goddamn years old, im in college, im a year and a half on t, I have a fucking job, and I'm thriving all things considered
          
          and i may or may not be in the process of uh. rewriting it. for Ao3
          It's not published or anything, its still in the baby stages of being redrafted, but something to look for i guess? I'll be back if i ever do publish it with the link and my Ao3
          
          only catch is that I reread it all this past month and realized that the whole thing was an overcomplicated and unintentional trans allegory. Like everything I was dealing with during that time was somehow written into that series, so I'm reworking it with a transmasc reader character. that will likely be the only version of the book that exists, so im truly sorry if you wanna revisit it but that's not your thing. its just a little . . . i dunno. im getting closure maybe, working through some things, figuring shit out, indulging.
          
          so anyway woohoo yippee ill be back soon if i ever write chapter 1
          
          if im feeling sexy i might republish the original on here, but i uh
          i kinda hate the how bad the first two books were despite the special place in my heart they have lmao so we'll see
          
          <3 hope yall are in a much better place than i was when i wrote that shit, i know i am

heyy james, I don't know if u remember me. I used to read your squip x y/n book. Had a cat pfp. It's been soo long. Just hope ur doing well! <3

I  genuinely will miss the BMC book. Holds a special place in my heart. I respect your decision (even though I am extremely late to the news cause I haven’t opened Wattpad in so long-) I hope you’re doing good! Take care of yourself!!

god, i logged in to like double check something, like someones username was familiar, and i had a physical reaction to opening the site. bro this place is curse i was in such a bad place when i was on here. if any of yall are still around i hope youre doing much better than i was <3

Hehe,666 followers

Hello, what's the name of your other account? I wanna follow it too.

I'm going to be unpublishing most if not all of my books. Wattpad was a huge coping mechanism for me for a lot of years. It got me through high school honestly, but I don't need it to cope anymore. It reminds me of a time in my life I don't want to think about. I'm also not proud of some of what I wrote. A lot of it is cringe, but some of it is just in really poor taste. I just want to move on from this.
          
          I really appreciate what Wattpad did for me and all the awesome people I met. This was the only place I felt like I could be myself, and a lot of what I wrote is a direct reflection of the bad things I was going through, so some of it is really personal. I'm not ready to fully delete my account, but I don't want my stories up anymore.

I forgot about this account until now. But while going through the people I'm following, I recognized your user immediately. Like, seeing this brings back so much nostalgia lmao but it's cool to see that a lot of the people I was a huge fan of are still writing