Duke

Im fucking done with life. So I just learned my bestfriend hasn't slept in over 42 hours. I told her I wanted her to sleep, but she said no. She said she can't die due to lack of sleep until day 16. I told her I didn't fucking care, and I asked her to sleep, for me. Then she fucking left the chat. If she doesn't sleep, she doesn't fucking care. Great. I've fucking pushed her away too, along with all the other friends in my life. I'm officially alone. Sure, I have someone who checks on me, but we... we never talk. We have grown apart. And now, the one person who I had hope in, and they were the last person who had hope in me, is fucking leaving me. I am so done with this damn world

Heys guys. I know some of yall probably don't care, but I'm not dead. The medicine didn't kill me! Yay, right? Right now I'm eating a poptart while watching Thomas Sanders, and Daz watches videos, lol. They make me feel better. So does Markiplier, but I watch him on my better days. Right now my insides hurt, and I think that's from the medicine. I am also really dizzy, and I have ringing in my ears. It started last night.
          But
          Anyways
          I'm currently typig a smut/chapter book, on here. it is called "Logical" Feelings [LAMP/DR LAMP/SMUT] 
          I had started it forever ago, but never finished the first chapter. So now that I feel like absolute shit, and I'm not really ready to vent about it in my vent book, I'm finishing up the first chapter as a distraction. Soooo... if your interested, check it out? I'll post an update or something when it is published. But that is it for now. Love you guys

I think something is seriously wrong with me... So today wasn't that great, and I... I took some excedrine, but I took more then I should have. Not too much, but just a bit more then I should have taken. And now, I am all dizzy. I have already been dizzy for a few weeks, but right now I feel like I'm going to smack face first into my laptop. I was try to type in one of my books to dirstact myself, but I started just.. going in and out, if that makes since. I think I will be okay, but I'm kind of freaking out right now. And if something happens, it is all my fault... and my parents will find out, and it will just be a mess. What should I do?

I'm back... I just updated on my other account, and I was all happy and stuff. I felt amazing, but now, only a half an hour later, I'm done. And my last post, no one cared. Which I get it. I'm a fuck up anyways. I was so happy only a little bit ago... this doesnt make since. I saw that I had like over a thousand views, and I got really excited. But now?... i dont know. I have no idea why I'm like this... but at least i didnt decide to delete the account right? No... what am i thinking. I'm not right. No one would have cared... but I'm back. And I'm updating on here soon. I need to get some stuff off my chest.

Guys, I'm done. I think I'm just going to delete my account both of them. I know I'll probably regret it in the morning, but as of right now, I dont care. I want to rip myself apart, and destroy everything. No one cares. No one will care. I'm just a mistake. I'm not fucking worth it. Someday I might create a new account. Maybe soon. But I'm not sure. It all depends on what my mental state is, because right now I'm a fucking mess. So, most likely, goodbye. We will see if I dont, if I dont I'll update in the morning. I'm so sorry to all the people I said I'd make a story with. I might still do it if I make a new account, but I dont know. 

Hi it’s me :) I can’t wait to read it