Dear Joel,
I wish I wouldn’t have to post this publicly like this, but at this point I doubt even my emails will reach you. I’m sorry...
I’ve lost an ungodly amount of weight due to starvation since you started blocking, ghosting and emotionally draining me. I was so stressed, depressed, confused and broken-hearted I could not get myself to eat. That hasn’t changed to this day. This week, I started getting the internal bleedings again, and they are worse than ever before. I am actually worried. Due to COVID I can’t visit the hospital, so I’m desperately taking the leftover medicine I have of last year hoping that they will fix everything once more. My limbs are slowly becoming weaker. Currently, all I’m staying alive for and fighting for is the Yuri on Ice movie. That trailer literally saved my life, I was on the edge of life and death for weeks but it pulled me back into the light. I won’t die before I’ve seen it, no matter what. You might be wondering why I send you all this? Because you need to see what the inevitable consequence of this whole thing is. Of the pain you pulled me through. You might move on easily, reblogging your Supernatural and ‘I was emotionally abused’ stuff, but darling, you don’t have any right to reblog those kind of posts when doing this to others. When manipulating, leading them on and using them for years and then dropping them, framing your emotionally scarred victims as abusers and dangers. You have used me for years, and now your experiments have become deadly. I will fight for my life, but I will surely not fight for you. I treasure the memories of the good friend you were, but I also see you as the person that pulled me through the most pain ever now. And those wounds will scar.
I hope your heart will empathize one day.
