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CAN YOU GUYS SEE MY READING LISTS!.!?! IM FINALLY BACK WHAT LIKE AFTER JUST 2-3 YEARS???? MAYBE LESS BUT IT FELT SO LONGGG

@l3v14ch4n oofus ngl I'm kinda cringing at my bio but its true- T . T

BROOO were so mch desame i really dont know how to start a conversation in an awkward time i dont know how to carry a conversation and how to end a convo
          
          

MY WEBTOON COINS EXPIRED BEFORE I COULD EVEN USE THEM!! NOOOOOOOOOUUUUUU!!!!!!
          (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

IM FINALLY GOING BACK TO SCHOOL IN TWO DAYS!! FINALLY AFTER 4 YEARS-
          I AM SCARED OUT OF MIND.
          I AM WILLING JUMP OFF A BRIDGE NEAR BY.
          PRAY FOR ME plz TwT
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          I hate people..
          I hate being alone in a room of absolute strangers...
          I dont wanna do this-

Part 3
          
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          I was breathing quite a tad bit hard and I was sweating because IT IS FUCKING HOT TODAY/TONIGHT FOR NO REASON. And I got up and went to the bathroom to try to wake myself up a bit to make myself feel better. I was planning to go to the living room where my mom and her b0yfRiEnD is and talk about it for a bit and take some pizza to feel better but then.... I heard moans. So that was a big no no and my love and respect for my mom is dying more quickly than I expected.
          
          I spent and hour writing this PSHBAHAHAH-
          
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          I'm not scared anymore. I feel more relaxed. I should probably thank my terrible memory sometimes. It starting to feel it never happened in the first place. I also think that bloody nose from right a few minutes before falling asleep also triggered my dreams more perhaps.? I was also watching DBH(Detroit:becomehuman) on YT and probably that's where the guns came from.
          
          And my moms boyfriend scares me most times (well everyone does to be exact) so that must explain the guys in my dreams. Especially the 'FANCY BLACK SHOES! ONLY LEGS TO SEE HERE SWEETIE' POV.
          
          It is 2:17 am now.
          
          Pray for a fellow human here please will ya. If I get another sleep paralysis (dream?), Im'ma complain again.
          
          RIP the pizza I never got to even get a glance at tonight
          
          (Now 2:26 as I post this trying to fit all this into my annoucments)
          
          The END (I hope)

Part 2
          
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          And then I woke up! Or so I thought. I was having a sleep paralysis in a dream!?! I was like "shit!" and I've always been scared of getting sleep paralysis aNd wElP hErE wE aRe. And I was Scared but also a part of me was like "Oh snap, this is scary! But finally I get to experience what sleep paralysis feels like!" And I tried moving but sadly I couldn't, I was aware and sleeping I think??? (Or maybe just sleeping and dreaming.) Because I thought I was actually able to move my body but then I woke up agAin and realized I'm still stuck and so I tried focusing on moving my body and waking up but I was still slEEPING and DREAMING. And then I heard LOUD FUCKING NOISES THAT HURT LIKE A BITCH IN MY EARS.
          
          I think I heard my sister beside me, and I couldn't open my eyes but I could still see as in 'imagine' what was in front of me. I remembered reading about making noises to make someone wake you up fully, but I couldn't use my voice at all, but I could hear my breathing and so I made loud breathing noises and even went like "SNIFF* SNIFF* AND MAKING WEIRD BREATHING NOISES*"But then I realized my sister and me do this sometimes that she wouldn't take me seriously and I saw that there was no hope and I hate my sister now.
          
          But I hated the noise even more! I actually hated the loud 'beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep' noise that hurt like a bitch enough that I was so annoyed my brain probably thought it was an alarm or someone disturbing my slEEP. And I actually woke up! Real this time!! Finally!
          
          To be continued!

 Part 1-
          
          I THINK I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HAVING SLEEP PARALYSIS!?! I DONT KNOW. I JUST WOKE UP 30 MINUTES AGO AND NOT SURE ANYMORE. 
          
          I WAS HAVING SCARY NIGHTMARES OF TWO GUYS BREAKING INTO OUR APARTMENT AND THE HAD GUNS AND THEY ATTACKED MY SISTER FIRST AND THEN I TRIED TO ESCAPE THROUGH MY WINDOW BUT THEN REMEMBERED I CANT FIT THROUGH MY WINDOW 'CAUSE THERES A LOCK, AND I STILL WOULD'VE EITHER WAY CAUSE WERE FRICKING UP HIGH, AND I GOT SHOT. BUT THEN I GOT A CHANCE TO REWIND EVEN THOUGH IT HAPPENED ALL SO QUICKLY AND THIS TIME I HAD A LETTER THAT SAID "HELP" AND BLAH BLAG BLAHA. Sorry I'll try to calm down-
          
          And then I threw it out the window and the guy had his gun aimed at my forehead and shot me in the head close up. I didn't care about myself, I just needed sister to survive. I risked my life to throw a letter out the window that probably didn't say shit and- wtf. (Woke up at random times and fell back asleep and continued the nightmares)
          
          I was so ducking scared. I also had like- two more of me and my sister getting attacked but I cant remember, it happened WAAAAAYYY to quickly sir.
          
          It felt like I was in anime where a character has traumatizing flashbacks of abuse and tears and sad shit and creepy things. (Just pictures and videos going on in your head quickly like a flashback) and then the character just breaks down or cries or somethin'.
          
          (I also dreamed of some guy wearing black shoes (literally only showing his legs in the pov) and he was walking up to me from behind while I was sleeping and that scared me more.)
          
          To be continued lol

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          Break the chain if you wanna break my heart úwù

Reading your bio, would you be so kind and generous to gift me a shitty advice?