Luka Akari

Hey! So I'm getting a new phone because my phone decided to stop working and all that fun stuff. 
          I have a picsart account (only bc my mom don't know it social media type shit and yeahhh you probably understand me here) called sasha_werido. I recently posted that I'm getting a new phone and explained there and that if I couldn't get back into my account I'd go from my old phone and @ it. Wellll now I can't do that and I am dum and my bsf has our shared braincell rn so idk what to do. Also no one will probably see this seeing as i have 100 followers and no likes nor comments on any of my stuff on picsart and I feel like a failure most my life so your probably skimming through this and i promise you this is just a waste of time (just like my life-) and I'm sorry I wasted your time (:(

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So I would usually post this to my book but I felt more comfortable doing this so here it is, god this is dumb...
           I was trying to have a good day for Mother’s Day but my birth mother had to ruin it. I did things for my mom and she texted me this long ass text about how she was pissed of how I didn’t do anything for her when I was her kid, mind you my biological mother has had me since 3 months. A few days before this she had had gotten on my live when someone asked who got me my eyeshadow pallet and I said ‘ one of my family members got this for me.’ Because she never told me what to call her. I mean I’m not gonna call her mom because she’s the reason I fell into depression with her screaming at my family and saying I was mistake and saying that if I wasn’t born my father would still be alive and that she hates my guts. I forgave her... my whole family did... I mean it hurt too. But I did. She’s been clean off drugs for a while but I’m afraid she’s going back into them and I’m scared that I’m not gonna have anyone to trust anymore. The only people I trust are my older sister and my cousin. I’m scared that if she goes back that my step father will see our family war and see it as were a family of drama and leave us alone. My biological mother thinks everything’s fine with me in front of her but I just put a fake smile. I hate it but there’s nothing I can do to stop. God my life feels like a movie and I hate it. So many people are always like ‘ man I wish I had a strange and sad backstory’ no you don’t it’s horrible and I hate it. When I’m able to get out of this hellhole most call my home I’m getting out of town and staying out.