@KiraInIra Shit I'm very sorry to hear that. I know how that feels wanting to just give up and but life is strange wonderful things can happen in this life. Try counting the good things you have in life try and talk to people who you trust if you have any. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Of course it’s been a while where a guy that have harem don’t act like a simp and horny dog but a cool guy and just because everyone a girl doesn’t mean he can’t reject anyone