LadyBitter101

It's 2023 of January 1 hahhaa and we are feeling this way.Tf?!

I am getting tired of this cycle. Haha
          Everything was invalidated and not enough soooo we gotta do what we gotta do

Hahaha let's leave and no one needs to kow

Maybe I should start keeping my mouth shut.
          Stop opening too much to people.
          Keeping the rants, thoughts and stories to myself.
          I should stop annoying people.
          

Let's get this straight and quiet frank ,I am not really anyone's favorite cup of tea .
          I am the first taste of bitterness that no one wants to have ever again.
          The first person you choose not to talk to.

This is one those nights that I feel numb but disappointed with myself.

I am not a fan of smoking since I realized that I can't take the smoke on my lungs but this year the smoke feels like my new addiction I can't live without. The way the smoke feels when you inhale it and hold it inside the lungs , and the way the smoke fights to be freed out of your mouth? It feels fantastic and not suffocating. I don't blame the smokers for having a hard time smoking because I can't even stop myself from doing so.

I've come to realized that no one really asked me how I am like how am I holding on to life? Like no one even tried to ask if I am doing good or not .Funny that it is one of my thoughts for tonight. Maybe this is the reality ,the reality that I will be the only one to get to ask myself "how am I doing" . 

Parang gusto ko na ulit iisolate ang sarili ko sa tao.

I am disappointed with myself