Lasertag Master

Hey. Its me um Lifeisgoodenough. We were friends before I lost my phone. I would've came sooner but I couldnt

Hey.
          Just...hey.
          How are all of us doing?
          I haven't been online in a while and I feel like it's too late. I haven't seen @Mintroni in a while, and it looks like their account doesn't exist anymore...I'm too late.
          I'm too late. But am I not too late for some of you?
          I'm basically checking if you're like, alive.
          I'm sorry Minty.

@ScAAArlet38 i just got back on here! I stopped posting because of business stuff and now need antidepressants and had my bf call the popo on my parents yesterday.
          Not like anyone but you really noticed..i miss you guys.

Guys guys I think my anxiety is getting way more manageable! I was squirming so much this time while texting in my groupchat, and I didn't feel much unnecessary embarrassment when my friend said he was doing homework which was why wasn't responding all the time.
          I also didn't feel so emotional when apologizing if I had interrupted anything.
          
          This break from my parent's house is really helping a lot! I just hope I can LITERALLY maintain my sanity when I indefinitely go back.
          I'm going to choose to be optimistic about it, as my mom and I might be getting therapy together after a month or so...I don't know.

FINALLY! I made a YouTube video that I put on public instead of unlisted!
          It's gonna be one of the two main characters in a love story!!!
          I'll make the other character today, and post the video tomorrow morning (at least for me it's 8 am rn).
          I made the music!!!! Again!!! Just read the description.

Guys it's 2:28 am and me being happy and hopeful in life is also making me zanyyy!!!!
          I was watching a bunch of cursed comments videos and I almost couldn't suppressed my laughter!
          The strange thing is is that this is exactly how I felt when I was 12 on down, staying up late but NOT for sad reasons!
          I have SUCH a HEADACHE!!!! :DDD!!!!
          ALSO I CAN'T STOP SMILING WHEN I THINK OF CURSED THINGS INSTEAD OF FEELING GUILTY!
          Like, when I was depressed, I felt like I was only sinking deeper into those hideous thoughts (like murder and things dying in weird ways), but now I realize that I thought of things like that when I was younger, too!
          That's why I started writing in the first place! Because I wanted to imagine things like that more vividly!
          And then I lost my motivation for posting because of depression, and those thoughts became my guilt and almost my actions rather than my inspiration!!
          Damn!!!!! I am learning so much about myself!!!!!
          Lol, I forgot that I actually liked those thoughts instead of feared them...depression can mess you up in so many not okay ways, you can forget how you USED to be messed up!
          And this? I can totally tolerate.
          I think it's time for me to FINALLY get back to writing this series I've been working to revamp under the covers for like half a year!!!

Me: *tells my friend who I've been texting for the past hour and a half something about raindrops*
          My friend: *doesn't text back*
          Me: *heavy breathing* this is fine! We've been texting for a while, maybe she just needed to eat!
          *a few minutes pass*
          Me: *nervously goes back to conversation* should I text her now? No...too soon.
          *a few more minutes pass and I feel better*
          Me: yeah, this is okay. She has a life, too.
          *thirty minutes later*
          Me: *anxiety filled laughter* what is wrong with me...?
          [I'm okay guys I've just turned from a depressed person to an adorably awkward person with some anxiety]

Things have been hard on all of us lately.
          Quarantines have taken nearly everything away from us.
          For me, it was theater, school, approval, my relationship with my mother, and now my privacy, as I now sleep in the living room of my grandparent's house with no walls.
          But today, I got school work done, drew the lyrics to a cave town song, and flopped on my mattress feeling more relaxed than ever before.
          More happy than ever before.
          It's not a perfect life, but I can deal with it and make it work.
          You ever just get so stressed for such a long period of time, you forget what it feels like?
          Like holy crap dude, I could kiss anyone around my age out of happiness if they let me.
          So tonight, i just want to make a post about being positive about the little things for the SAKE of being POSITIVE!
          So, FUCK sadness! FUCK anger!
          FUCK MOMMY ISSUES!
          FUCK MY LACK OF PRIVACY!
          IMMA BE HAPPY TONIGHT, AND TOMORROW TOO!
          Imma be happy when I want.
          Imma make my OWN happiness!!!
          Everything has failed ME, I am not the one who has failed everything!
          I owe the world NOTHING!
          HA! YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD KILL ME!?
          YOU'RE THE CURSED ONE, LIFE!
          NOT ME!
          YEAAAAAAHHHHHHH THAT'S RIGHT!
          I'M NOT SCARED OF YOU ANYMORE!
          YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I'M NOT AFRAID OF ANYMORE!?
          MAH MOM!
          I'M NOT AFRAID OF FAILURE, HEARTBREAK, BULLIES, ANYTHING!!!
          WHY!? NO FUCKIN IDEA BRO!
          I WAS BORN AN ILLOGICAL BEING, WHO WILL CONTINUE TO DEFY BY EXISTING!!
          AND YOU CANNOT. STOP. ME!!!!!
          AAAAAAAAAAAGGHHHHHHHH!!!
          *EMPOWERED YELLING*
          *FLIPS TABLE OVER*
          *SHOOTS BB GUNS IN THE AIR AND RUNS AROUND*
          I. BELONG. HERE!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VX7AkqPM35Y&t=28s
          I think this is the right link...but anyways I made a cat video.
          These are mah uncle's cats, because I'm staying with him and my grandparents for a while. To recover from...you know.

My username on your bio is Galactic_Rosan, but I got it changed to Galactic_RAT, so yeah.