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hi ley:3
we hardly talk anymore , i cant even recall the last time we had an actual proper and decently lengthen conversation, but I hope ur doing well!! you were my first online friend, AND wife (AND favorite), and though our friendship was short lived, i will never forget the memories we made 2gether .(this is cheesy AS FUCK)
from the time we started drifting away to now, a lot of things have swiftly changed and I’ve came to many important realizations in a short amount of time. I drifted away from countless people on this app, and on discord, and at the same time met so many new amazing ppl . my personality took a 180 turn more than a hundred times, and I’ve picked up so many new interests and dropped a lot at the same time. I’ve learned a lot in my life, and now looking back at our old conversations and how I used to talk about myself to you, most of the things I said to you I can’t again anymore . I’m still Xen, and I haven’t necessarily changed, but I’m uh, maturing . I still haven’t fully matured, but I’m there . When I say a lot has happened, that’s an understatement . I’ve wrote so many stories with you, (in a figure of speech way), but I’ve written so many more different stories with various kinds of people . Ive been through so many new experiences, and they taught me a lot. I cant say i wanna kill myself less ☠️, but I’m getting there!! it kind of changes often ☠️
I often randomly go offline for days and usually I’m hardly inactive, which I thought would never happen for at least a year of being here, but I think everyone gets at this stage at some point. I’m growing out of wattpad, actually focusing on myself and studies, and I don’t have this urge to go online every second. I wont quit, there’s still so many people on here that I desperately want to keep in contact with (including YOU) .
there’s still so much left to say, but maybe for another time or something.