Gel Emrie Stanley

WOOOOOO IM TURNING 12 TOMORROW! May 4 yayyyyyy

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh for some reason it says I can't message you in our private chat I'm confused D:

for those who want to message me i am glad to share that my available chats are Discord: faller_an0nym0us_nam3_83395
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First of all...i am so fucking pissed off, i just saw that Wattpad will be deleting direct messages (or Private messages) LIKE WOOW, GOOD JOB WATTPAD (sarcasm...)

Hey ya'll, i won't be active for a few days...or maybe the whole week because i currently have an I-Engineering project thats due on Friday

new OCs!
          Siera
          they are based on a seraphim butttt i have a twist to it, demon and angel, the front will look like an angel ooor more like a seraphim. The back side is a fucking demon.
          
          VøVin Dequavin Nevø
          I have no idea what the ø even sounds like, either pronounce it as VoVin or VVin (not a W) I'm working on their appearance
          
          Bebezebub
          the avatar of gluttony shall arrive! what does their appearance look like? we won't know! A pig? A Bee? A MOTHER FUCKING BEAR? TAKE A GUESS!
          
          Showmaster's Beflasphemy (offense), Hevappy Mavnic (happy or Manic), Desprair (despair)
          3 headed showmasters! what a surprise don't even try to offend Beflasphemy she won't hold back on attacking you. Hevappy will always make your day better or creep you out with their constant laughter from being so happy! Desprair...even if your darkest moments she will revel in your Despair and make it more worse than ever...trust me if you even one bit make Desprair happy she will leave you and your sad ass alone
          
          kippy cappy
          a capybara! they won't bother you unless you bother them, chill, doesn't have motivation

wanna know what i realized my mom thought she raised me as? A FUCKING SPOILED, LAZY BITCH. What she wanted me to be is getting good grades, good manners, all good, good, good. What she got a girl who raises themselves to have high expectations of what their friends should be, easily gets angry if a mistake repeats itself, lies because they're afraid of punishments, REALIZING THEY WON'T BE GOOD ENOUGH, REALIZING THEY'RE A BITCH TO PEOPLE IF EVERYTHING DOESN'T GO AS THEY EXPECTED. FOR FUCKS SAKE SHE THINKS SHE KNOWS WHATS BEST FOR ME?! SHE THINKS SHE KNOWS ME WELL, FUCK NO. I SWEAR TO GOD MY MIND IS JUST TELLING ME TO END MY LIFE NOW, MY HEART IS JUST GIVING UP ON THINKING NO ONE AT MY FUCKING SCHOOL WILL NOT LOOK AT ME WEIRD JUST BECAUSE I LIKE TO SAY RANDOM STUFF, MY FEELINGS ARE JUST FUCKING MESSED UP, ANGER IS JUST WAITING TO BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF MY FRIENDS, MY WHOLE SANITY IS ABOUT TO GET GOING OFF THE DEEP END BECAUSE I AM TIRED OF HOLDING BACK EVERY SINGLE FUCKING EMOTION AND URGE THAT I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW AS I AM SICK OF HOW I THINK I AM BRAVE AND I CAN HOLD BACK MY EMOTIONS BUT NO, I HAD A HUGE FUCKING BREAKDOWN BECAUSE OF HOW MY CLASS MADE A SENIOR WHO FROZE UP ON STAGE FEEL SO FUCKING TERRIBLE, NOW THE SCHOOL IS TALKING SHIT ABOUT US AND I FEEL LIKE I JUST CAN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING ABOUT MY CLASSMATES TO MAKE THEM BEHAVE PROPERLY

Does anyone else feel the need to offend everyone including your friend because you are sick and tired of them constantly being not so serious or just leaving you  whenever they see others OR YOU ARE JUST SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THEM CONSTANTLY HAVING TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU JUST TALK WAY TO MUCH TO THE FACT THEY JUST MOVE ON TO ANOTHER FRIEND FOR A SILLY CONVERSATION TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU AIN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM SO YOU JUST OVERTHINK WHY ARE YOU SO FUCKING BORING TO THEM?!
          
          and does anyone else just feel like whenever one of your DND group friends are just having fun but whenever you try and talk to them they just seem very annoyed with you even though you are just trying your best to lighten up the mood every single fucking time of your goddamn life?!
          or is that just me :/

okay so about that dream I mentioned I was thinking of making a book about it since it felt so real...it felt like i needed the answers to what would've happen if i accepted his hand, HECK I FELT LIKE I JUST TELEPORTED FROM THE 2ND FLOOR TO THE DOWNSTAIRS FLOOR AND CHANGED NIGHT TO DAY

guys holy shit i just had the weirdest dream ever, so i was going home, i drove with my car headlights off...AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WHEN I GET HOME I HAD TO HIDE BESIDE MY CAR TO AVOID SOME SPIDERMAN: INTO THE SPIDERVERSE SPIDER PEOPLE WHO WERE IN THAT COLORFUL STYLE ON SOME CYBERPUNK MOTERCYCLES LOOKING FOR ME. WHEN I GET INSIDE I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO TURN ON THE LIGHTS AND THEY FOUND ME BUT I WAS LITERALLY AFRAID...ONE OF THEM SPIDER PEOPLE WHO IDK IS THEIR NAME WAS IN A SCREEN AND THEIR HAND SOMEHOW BROKE THE SCREEN BARRIER TO OFFER ME A HAND WHEN I WAS DOWN ON MY KNEES AFRAID, WHEN I ALMOST PUT MY HAND IN HIS, THE SCREEN SUDDENLY GLITCHED PULLING HIM BACK, THEN ANOTHER SPIDER MAN BITCH (i think it was miles Morales) HE OFFERED ME HIS HAND AND BEFORE I CAN EVEN PUT MY HAND IN HIS I WOKE UP TO MY FUCKING ALARM