@ManicSid
as i move through this early 20s limbo and gobble down on rom-coms and coming-of-age movies, id love to know about if you faced any adulthood transition crisis, any of your coming-of-age stories? treat this little corner as your own ranting void
sleep zombie where you at? come fucking get me
fresh start, blank slate again.
today's dream really got me excited and broke my heart all over
i dreamt that i was on a cruise with a bunch of people, a through and through party-kinda scene. that im still my awkward, shy self, but in this one im also the idiot who brought her mom to the party!!
anyways, the juiciest segment of the dream series was that i met a boy along the way<3
that we didnt talk much at the start, but his friends were stubborn assholes who made him approach me. i learned that he was kind, ahem and real chivalrous and passionate as we talked and talked, as he held my hand in his palms, thumb brushing on my knuckles...just as he was about to lean into me to kiss me when
SPLASHHHHHHHH
Dream over. Khatam. Dead. My mumma towers over me yelling me to wake tf up. I swear my mum haunts both my dreams n my reality sometimes xd. (but she's my cutie)
why am i using wattpad like im on twitter.
oh right, because im too hyperactive to hv an account on yet another social media-esque site
last night i dreamt that i became a mermaid.¯\_(ツ)_/¯what in the aquamarine shit xd
so i leave my acc unchecked for a month and i have 800+ notifications lol. it's my fault followed wayy too many accounts recklessly and now im not sure how to organize
when your mind's aimless and your heart goes bleh, bleh bleh, bleh bleh like a transylvanian vampire
Ending up trapped within these four forbidden walls was not the plan. Spending my day staring at nothingness but the white room was not in the plan. Not having a plan was not the plan.
It took me 6 months 54 days and 7 hours to get here. It'll probably take even longer to get out.
I came from a place that forgot how to dream, where holding on to choiceless hopes were the only way out. My hometown is a demon quicksand, sucking souls for livelihood, eating out the young to survive.
@ManicSid "—where holding on to choiceless hopes were the only way out" hitted me hard.
i wish i was braver. i wish i had that fiery passion to see something through. that i was honest enough to chase after them. that i was strong enough to work hard for those dreams. that i was dedicated enough to change myself, some parts of my life, for the things i need and want. that i had the heart to keep promises to myself and a tough skin to sustain all the bad weathers, yet keep a smile on and enjoy the process, the journey. that i would be kinder even if the world isn't, that i would know exactly how to stand up to the unkindness, and know to comfort myself thereafter.
