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I hate my fucking family. Especially my mom, all she tells me is how much of a fucking failure I am. Today, I did everything she told me,"clean the house, wash the dishes and make dinner." When I go serve her food, all she FUCKING says to me is,"eww, Fifi. The rice is mushy. I realized your cooking is getting worse. First is your grades, now it's this. I can't believe what I'm eating my money on." She does something to make me feel miserable. Whenever I get the courage to speak up, she questions why I backchat. My siblings on the other hand are just making things harder for me. By making a mess, not doing their elaborated chores, and still shouting at me to do it for them. IM BASICALLY A FUCKING MAID IN THIS SHITTY HOUSEHOLD!!! I get called overweight by my own mother, she tells me to go to gym, and then tells me that I can't cause I have to clean up the house. Then when something bad goes worse, I'll be her anger outlet. I would hear out her venting, but when I try to, she uses it against me. I told her I loved Designing. All she did was tell me to stop drawing white people and actually care of my own colour, to stop wasting my time on it, to stop drawing because it distracts me at school, that my drawing is unnecessary for some things. I hate my family, so much. But I can't do anything, because I'm stuck...and I don't know where to go and what to do. I feel like calling my Dad, but he would probably tell my Mom. I would call my uncle, but he'd probably tell her too. So I'm confused and conflicted. I'm just stuck in a corner, asking where to go.
