I'm a great liar, aren't I?
Well... I'm back now, mostly here, not in stories. I'm thinking on doing a little thing on my announcements work abt what's been going down but here's a little something, kinda like a sneak peek.
I guess I should start off with the fact that I'm not... in the right mindset right now and haven't been for a while. I wish I had some epic story to tell y'all about how I got hit by a bus and came back only with a broken leg but... I have nothing. Just... depression.
My friends don't want to hang out with me, and frankly I don't want to hang out with them either anymore. I find being alone the only time I'm happy. Anytime I'm with them it's always something that happens that bothers them. Not healthy for the mind, yk?
Anyhow, I need therapy, I'll admit it. I just don't know how to express this concern to my family. I don't want to come across as 'in need of saving' or 'the s word I won't say' because that's far from it. I just need someone to talk to about things, someone who won't try to downtalk my feelings and let me express myself.
I can't find that person in my friend group.
Not just that, however, but I... Well, I've been doing a lot of poetry. Maybe I'll post some of it on here, but idk. It helps a lot. To just let my words out without an actual story. I feel happier when I do it. I even posted to New York Times (don't expect much from that haha) but yeah...
that's how life's going. I hope you all are doing better than me, mentally and physically. I love you all, so very much. Thank you for supporting me for all these years.