MsUlian

I can't believe I forgot to post this -- uh. so. um...
          	On March 14th, we had to put down my childhood cat. He'd been with me since I was one years old, after my brother had died as well. So he was like a brother to me.
          	
          	I got his ashes today, and I've been taking it relatively okay. Sometimes it's hard, but I'm getting through it. Anyway, I'm still hoping to get a new chapter out this month, but I do not promise anything due to this all.

MsUlian

I can't believe I forgot to post this -- uh. so. um...
          On March 14th, we had to put down my childhood cat. He'd been with me since I was one years old, after my brother had died as well. So he was like a brother to me.
          
          I got his ashes today, and I've been taking it relatively okay. Sometimes it's hard, but I'm getting through it. Anyway, I'm still hoping to get a new chapter out this month, but I do not promise anything due to this all.

MsUlian

I'm a great liar, aren't I?
          
          Well... I'm back now, mostly here, not in stories. I'm thinking on doing a little thing on my announcements work abt what's been going down but here's a little something, kinda like a sneak peek.
          
          I guess I should start off with the fact that I'm not... in the right mindset right now and haven't been for a while. I wish I had some epic story to tell y'all about how I got hit by a bus and came back only with a broken leg but... I have nothing. Just... depression. 
          My friends don't want to hang out with me, and frankly I don't want to hang out with them either anymore. I find being alone the only time I'm happy. Anytime I'm with them it's always something that happens that bothers them. Not healthy for the mind, yk?
          
          Anyhow, I need therapy, I'll admit it. I just don't know how to express this concern to my family. I don't want to come across as 'in need of saving' or 'the s word I won't say' because that's far from it. I just need someone to talk to about things, someone who won't try to downtalk my feelings and let me express myself. 
          
          I can't find that person in my friend group. 
          
          Not just that, however, but I... Well, I've been doing a lot of poetry. Maybe I'll post some of it on here, but idk. It helps a lot. To just let my words out without an actual story. I feel happier when I do it. I even posted to New York Times (don't expect much from that haha) but yeah...
          
          that's how life's going. I hope you all are doing better than me, mentally and physically. I love you all, so very much. Thank you for supporting me for all these years.

MsUlian

@Toki_isdone Thank you so much! I've been doing better as of late but don't know if I'll get back into fully writing - we'll see :D
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Toki_isdone

@MsUlian I know this is basically a whole ass month later, but I'm sorry your going through this and feeling this way, life is overwhelming and hard, and it sucks, but if you ever need or want to talk, even if it's just about random stuff, my dm's are always open, I hope your poetry continues to help you feel better, even if you keep it to yourself. And I hope things get
            Better for you❤️
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Ooka-chan

@MsUlian you're welcome and thank you ! ❤❤❤
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MsUlian

Aaaaalright. I said I was posting last month, which was obv a lie. Apologies about that. However, I am back now and HOPEFULLY (<-- meaning to not expect much for now) I will get something out for y'all this month. Once again, apologies.

MsUlian

Posting schedule for this month:
          
          -New chapters on Tidal Waves and a possible Sin's Moving Castle
          -New Spidersona book in the works
          
          I am going on vacation later this week and have some school related things I need to attend next week so don't be expecting anything big until after July  27th

MsUlian

WHEN YOU SOLVED THE PLOT HOLE IN FROZEN 2
          
          ok ok, so I was listening to the soundtrack of F2 cuz it's yk... good, and I just realized how to solve the HUGE problem with the movie: The voice calling to Elsa. It should be the souls of the people who died during their grandfathers whole... destroying thing. They're leading Elsa back to save Arendell (is that how you spell it?)
          at least this is better than "it's her powers," or, "it's her mom" (Idk if it was confirmed to be their mom, actually I think it is- I still like my theory tho)