Marriann

Currently at the moment, I have no internet connection or access. Currently on my phone wifi thing, but it's actually so rubbish. But I will get my writing done while it's off, we're also changing company too so that'll take a few days/weeks to sort itself out. I'm not promising much but I will try and have a few things ready for when it comes back on. 

I will get something updated soon. My head has just been all over the place lately. Between so-called friends and other things. Plus there's been nothing but footie on for the last month and it won't be finished until July 10th. Meanwhile, July 8th is my dad's birthday. Which will suck. But, soon. Okay?

Guys, I'm having a little trouble with my internet right now. It keeps restarting when I'm busy doing stuff. We're getting a thing sent out that's meant to help it, but we'll see. I'll hopefully be back with an update soon :) Also, part 11 of GG is a quarter written (?), I have the starter and the middle/ending, it depends on how I write it. I'll see you soon :)

I'm so sorry the updates have ceased to a halt, but lately my mental health has taken a turn for the worst. My medication has stopped working, but I'm back at my docs on the 18th for a check up. Up they go. Again! Anyway, part 9 of Golden Girl is slowly being written as the days go on. I'm trying to power through this but it's just tough when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and never come out of it. I will try and get it up soon :) <3

So, hey everyone... 
          
          I have a lot of news to tell you but I have no idea on where to begin. I probably should start at the biggest one first... 
          
          I had to drop out of college due to my health taking a turn for the worst. Physically I'm good but mentally I'm worse than ever. I was put back on my meds after managing to be off of them for 3 and a half months. And because I dropped out, I feel worse than ever because I now feel like everyone hates me. 
          
          Good news is that I'm writing again. Might not be as good as what it was before I had to sign off for the college year. Only downside is that I'm not able to concentrate on much, or be "here" for much. I'm either not liking what I'm writing or I just hate everything and everyone. I just feel like I'm in such a territory where I'm stuck in either one realm or another, but mainly stuck in one right now and it's just a pain in my butt. Becuase I want to be happy and "normal" and able to juggle so much and not have to worry about having a mental breakdown of feelings and backlash on myself. 
          
          Anyway, the next part of Golden Girl should be up within the next couple of days, it's nearly finished. It's not much but it will have to do for now.

Hey guys :) 
          
          I hope you have a Merry Christmas, a Happy Hanukkah, and a Happy Holidays. Enjoy it with your family and friends. 
          
          Marriann xx

Guys, I've not forgotten about any of you, or my writing. I just don't have the time anymore. I have come down with illness after illness, then on top of that, I've had assessment after assessment on top of that. Got two this Thursday and two on Wednesday, all while trying to learn a panto script and an acting script. With my production auditions coming up as well. So, I have a monologue to learn (another!) I'm literally bursting at the seams. Also, my mother has fallen today (20th November) and broken her ankle. So, I'm on caring duty. Plus, I need to get my assessment done. Ugh! I'm struggling here.

So, you'll notice that I've updated my letter to my dad in Hey Daddy, but I've updated nothing else. I could've written things but I've been suffering illness after illness. I ended up with the cold, then a mouth infection and then a chest infection. But, my wisdom tooth is probably gonna have to come out, as my infection has came back. Yipee! (Note the sarcasm!). However, the reason I haven't written is because I'm mind blocked. I'm still jam packed. It's came to the end of a week's holiday. (I'm on Friday, cause you know, BST timezone.) Although, I literally spent Sunday-Tuesday watching The Originals, and I'm still only on episode 16 of season 2. And I have an essay due Monday that's 1000 words. But, I'm struggling daily. With scheduling my college work, balancing things and my grief with my dad, even though it's over a year now. I've been crying a lot lately and it's annoying me but I know I need to let it come out instead of holding it in. But, it also doesn't help when my depression is playing up and my medication isn't working. 
          
          I'm sorry I keep apologising but I need to. Cause I feel like I'm letting you all down. Sorry.

Okay, little notice time. I currently can't write, at all. Things are just going from bad to worse. One good thing though, I passed my first written assessment!!! Woo! But, downsides? I'm seriously ill. Was diagnosed with having an infection in my mouth where my wisdom tooth is growing in. It's freaking painful! But my antibiotics are knocking me for six. I'm on 600 mg a day, with my own medication on top of that at 150 mg a day. I'm mainly sleeping it off because I can barely keep my eyes open for more than two hours at a time. I'm surprised I've lasted 7 hours today. But, I have to research the play we're doing for college, and I just can't keep myself awake. I miss writing, terribly. But just finding the time, it's hard and horrid. I promise I will try to get something up soon, because you'll all become uninterested otherwise. 
          
          Sorry. Once again!

Can I be brutally honest with you? College has me like drowning in things already. I have an essay due for a week on Monday. I have a monologue to prepare for 2 weeks. I have a script to draw up for a performance we're doing for the primary school kids. I have costumes to find. I have to look out plays for my graded unit. I'm literally jam packed already. And finding time to write has taken such a back burn to the bottom of my pile of things to do. Literally, I have no time. I have been in bed at 9pm. Because I've been so worn down with everything. It's only week one, going onto week 2 next week and I feel like I'm drowning. I'm honestly sorry that my uploads have halted but I need to focus on college this year.