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YIPPE!! (not a story update, will post one tmr! happy rant! not bragging btw, this has just been a hyper fixation lately n im excited!)
          
          Not the rant but if anyone remembers my scene-kid Furby Herman, good 4 u and plz know that he just got a scene kid makeover and now has eyelashes lolz- anywayz-
          
          The Furby i accidentally bought with my mothers paypal bcz it auto paid before i could use my gift card came in the mail!! 
          Still haven't opened the package bcz my ma wont let me until i clean the kitchen, which is valid, but oh my freakin god im excited- its supposed to work from what the listing said and ive been trying to find a working one for under like 40 bucks and not bidding for a long damn while now- only thing is that realistically collectors con is this weekend and i probs should've waited till after to buy the furby but like i said- it was sorta an accident, soo- if i find a furby at stcc then im just lucky- but omfg im excited because aside from it supposedly working its one of the furby babys so its smaller then a normal one and is baby pink with light yellow like hair and its just hhh- idk im just excited- like yes i have to pay my mother back in either manual labor or the money i saved up for the concert she didnt let me go to but like- its still amazing- and im freakin excited- 
          
          also no idea what to name it- i suck at names that arent jokes- i mean my furby from stcc like two or three years ago that i got low key scammed on bcz they said he worked n' he doesnt- but the mf is named herman for no real reason- and i used to have plants named Jarald so yeah- 
          If anyone has any names, even like weird joke ones plz lmk- because im at a loss and i cant exactly name it dumb-fuck or anything like that like i wanted- [and if it helps 2 see it u can find the furby on google by lookin up pink and yellow baby furby- imma also post a pic of it and herman along with the kandi furby carrier i made in like my face reveal book or smt!
          
          Mk sry for the random rant-
          -Luv Lee

like i dont rly consider myself actually talented- im mediocre at alotta shitz, especially art, crafts and anything like that.... but sum1 explain to me why i use my capabilities to make kandi to make the oddest shitz ever- like im sry- i spent all afternoon and evening yesterday workin on kandi for the first timein 4ever- like cool cool, maybe id finish that tmnt bag i was working on or make some cool cuffs for stcc(local collectors con i attend every spring and fall, usually cosplaying but not always.) since like, i can get away with wearing larger kandi at stcc and not be seen as insane for wearing em (wlcm to the south-) but instead...what do i do? 
          
          
          I MAKE A FREAKING FURBY CARRIER- LIKE FULL ON LITTLE HARNESS FOR MY FURNY HERMAN?! AND THE WORST PART IS THAT I HAD NO DESIGN, NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOIN YET IT STILL CAME OUT GOOD?! LIKE WTF?!
          
          im just confused on how i can be capable of so much shit....yet i make furby carriers now and still cant figure out how the hell to crochet....also i accidentally bought a 20 dollar furby on ebay with my moms paypal bcz it auto charged when i made an offer- i was using a visa gift card i had to buy it- but ykw, not gonna complain becaise she wasnt pissed just told me to clean smt thats bigger like the pantry(which is hell) and ill take it as paid debt for her making me miss the asking alexandria concert after id saved up the money for not one but two tickets- she was pissed off at me and inna shitty mood that week and just kept ignoring me on the topic until it was the day of the concert- so thats fun- now imma go spend my money on furbies and set them all up talking in the living room lolz-
          
          wtf am i doing i need 2 go clean b4 i get my ass beat:,] 
          
          idk what thiz rant even is-
          plz remember to stay hydrated and to take care of urselves!
          
          -Luv Lee<3

random friendly reminder that transmasc/trans men dont owe masuclinity and that transfem/trans women dont owe femineity- clothes dont have genders, wear whatever the hell ya want as long as it makes you feel good and comfortable and if anyone says otherwise, fuck em<33
          
          saying this bcz sometimez we forget that clothes are just sewn together pieces of fabric that hold no gender specifics- like you're a trans man? cool wear that freakin skirt and cute top u really like- you're a trans women? coolieo wear those cool pants that ppl gender for no reason and that shirt ya really like. clothes dont know gender. wear whatever the hell you want. oh and dont wanna wear a binder or bra or anything thats supposed to help ya pass of whtvr? dont, thats okay!
          
          [bit tmi but part of why im saying this is because ive been feeling this fr lately- got forced into buying a bra and shit. been feeling like i have to dress femine now and shitz and it keeps making me question if im trans or not- i am ineed trans and have been out online for around three years now. i have to keep reminding myself just because i dont always try to dress masc, have short hair or a real binder doesnt make me any less then i am, its self expression, fuck it. i have to keep trying to stop dysphoria from kicking my ass. and ya know what? summers coming up...im saying fuck it, im wearing my freakin low rise short-ish shorts and tank tops and wont wear my 'binder'unless i really wanna because mines a sports bra and it gets hot as hell.. this seems useless but im saying it because i know damn well im not the only who needs to hear smt like this.
          
          Plz remember to stay hydrated, eat smt, take ya meds, take breaks for urself and to take care of urself!!:]]
          
          -Luv Lee<33 [a writer who swears theyll start writing again soon...and post on why ive been gone and explain shit soon enough.]

Lol, finally at the drs so i can get my meds n b normal againnn-[possible cw/tw]
          
          
          Been off my adhd meds for almost 2months, never noticed how much they help until these past two months. 
          
          
          If these mfs don't give me a sticker imma say it wasn't worth it though. Give me stickers or give me no meds that I need to functionnn-
          
          Also having a small crisis bc they just weighed me n it's sayin I weigh more then usual which makes me uncomfy and I think itz bcz I've been off my meds that are also an appetite suppressant and I'm not used to eating how I have been [which is normal]
          
          Idk sry for coming outta know where with this dumb useless personal update lolz-
          
          
          -Luv Lee<33
          
          
          

It's bad when my mental health gets so bad that I can't even write as a coping mechanism.....been off my meds for abt 2 months, got a docs app Monday to get me back on em, hoping I'll get back to normal soon enough and get back to writing in a good motivated light and also just start feeling better. Sorry for being inactive and not even giving updates or such lately, hoping I'll get back to normal soon because I hate knowing it seems like I gave up on yet another story or that I just disappeared again.
          
          Might post a more detailed update a run down soon but yeah....I miss writing and hopefully I'll start doing better soon because I know I haven't been right lately, the groggyness and fact I lost alotta will to keep going says so
          
          
          -Luv Lee<3

we had to bring our outside cat [a stray thats now our cat-] inside cuz of how cold its gettin so we put her in my tiny ass bathroom but everytime i leave her alone she starts yelling so ive been chillin in my bathroom with this cat since like 10:30-ish-pm- and ive been sitting in the bathtub since ruffly like 11-smt-ish-pm- not including when i left for shitz-
          
          but ngl im cool w this, like ive got snacks, i jst accidentally dumped haft my mtn dew on my blanket, ive got a ds n tmnt ds games, ive got my laptop n a poj book ill probs never actually read cuz i dont have the attention span 4 that shitz n i might even go n do sum school work or write smt!- oh n ive got a spr precious lil kitty who randomly yells at me n im expected 2 sleep in here 2!
          
          
          ...yepz i dont rly plan on sleepinnnnn-
          
          -luv neo 
          if any1 wantz i might post picz of miss Jorge the not so stray cattt

I've got 2 short n ruff drafts for ' Dont Forget The Sun' in my notes at the moment. all ill say or hint at is the possibilities of a flashback scene/chapter that a few have asked about across platforms-
          let's see how it goes and if i can have it written, edited, double edited and up on all platforms by mardi gras!

Couldn't figure out what I wanted to do for the next part of "Don't Forget The Sun" so I started writing a semi unrelated flashback style scene a few days ago but then forgot what I was writing because I couldn't decide a name for a character that's mostly likely already dead and not very important to the plot if I involve them or the scene
          
          
          So on that subject if anyone has any ideas or suggestions or anything yall would like to see in the story please let me know cuz I'm lost as hell and if I jump straight into what I do have the story will progress to quickly- 
          
          
          Also hopefully I'll have the last part semi edited and reposted and I'll hopefully have part 4,5 and I think 6[that's the last I posted right?-] up and posted to tumblr soon! [I just don't enjoy haven't to reformat it to tumblr lolz] 
          
          -Luv Lee<3

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 
          
          LETZ HOPE THAT IN 2024 MY ASS WILL BE ABLE TO GET 8-12 NEW CHAPTERS OF 'DONT FORGET THE SUN', 'WE ARE YOUNG' WRITTEN N POSTED N MAYBE EVEN SOME NEW STUFF-
          
          HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GOOD NEW YEARS EVE N PLZ REMEMBER TO STAY HYDRATED N TAKE CARE OF URSELVES!!!
          
          
          mk imma go sober up sum now cuz those '21+" monsters r more dangerous then coconut v0dka  in orange monster- I need to go drink water n wtfy lolz
          
          
          -Luv Lee<3
          
          1/1/2024
          [Also we r only 2 away from 30s followers?! Like mk thats cool as shitz!!]

Mk so its nearly 2:30am and im just over here freezing my ass off cuz its like 30degrees and im southern as shit so im not used to cold weather- but thats besides the point,- but im over here sleeping on the damn sofa so i can use the space heater and trying to hide my whole ass laptop cuz my phone is dead[its not easy] and im trying to read over the last part of DFTS so i can start on the next chapter- this is something ive been needing to do because i at least need 500 base words for the chapters draft phase- but ykw this is kind of hard to do without my damn glasses-
          
          ... IM COLD,MY BACK HURTS,IM PARANOID AND I CANT SEE SHITZ, I CANT WRITE WORTH A SHITZ AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DRINK COFFEE WITH A FREAKIN STRAW  AND TO EAT NORMAL FREAKIN FOODS- I DONT WANT TO CHOSE VIOLNCE 4 TMR BUT IM BOUT 2-
          
          anywayz sry for this rant- also the reason 4 the last two of my pure frustration is cuz i had my back tooth yanked out at the dentist wednesday and i want my damn tooth back cuz i dont like the feelin of it not bein there-
          
          also if anyone has any ideas or promts or inspo for Dont forget the sun or we are young please say- i have main ideas but if i jump on those ideas both stories will become very fast paced and i dont want that-
          
          mk imma go sleep or try to write or smt now-
          
          -:uv Lee<33