Hello my lovers, idk if anyone gets this or care, just wanted to share that I’m going to a “job interview “ in a camping store just a thing to save money and get started. The owner is my mom’s cousin’s nephew so will probably be a more chill process.
Ngl i kinda prefer work in petco cuz it closer to my house and I’d probably get discount for pets things lol, but lately I haven’t been myself and never sent my resume there but I will getting home.
I’ll just get it out of my chest. My parents sheltered me a lot, my mom kept me under her wing in my childhood and I resented her a lot for it. To the point I had to lie where I was to be able to do stuff.
Was okay to get on a bike with a dude 15 years older to get a cafe on the mall? No, but it was fun and the guy was cool and got to ride on a bike lol.
So part of my, is lazy and comfortable. My anxiety and depression made me feel adverse to things out of my comfort zone, but I’m better now.
Still, I haven’t been pushing myself enough to get a job and I’m very aware of my parents financial situation so I want to get whatever job and give my mom a bit of money with my first paycheck.
When you used to wish to die, time stop existing and you try to avoid things that will take a long time because you don’t know if you will be alive in the end. But that’s in the past, and I screwed myself enough. I’ll be unhappy and work for some months, save, and start setting my life in the right path.
So yeah, there’s where I am at at the moment.
Thank you if you read this far.
Love you x