NoSleepTillBrooklyn

I'm afraid of the dark and I'm afraid that's the most honest I've been in a long time.
See in the dark all my fears are free to run wild and when things become out of my control I can't help but cry.
Because inside I'm as fragile as broken glass but in this twisted world your sharp ends never tend to hurt the people who pick at your pieces you only end up with more broken pieces.
So I hardly ever get any sleep because in that dark when my eyes close and my mind opens I'm only reminded that things aren't going half as good as I hoped and though I can bend the truth honestly this isn't a new necklace this is a rope around my throat.
I'm scared of the dark because all this time it's the one place I've never been safe. As a child in the dark is where monsters live and as a teen the dark is when monsters break into your crib and now monsters not only share your last name but they also have a key to where you live. 
When the sun goes down is when I seem to always remember especially those things I worked so hard to forget. The things that were said that I hope you regret. The needs that I wanted and never could get.
~A Maarii Original~