NyxieStixx

Changed my username. Used to be I_Ship_CrossMare, and now itā€™s a nickname my friends call me because the old username ainā€™t really accurate anymore.

NyxieStixx

Yā€™all Iā€™ve realized over time that genuinely Iā€™m no longer interested in writing about any of what my other stories were about. 
          
          
          
          Like Iā€™m less into Undertale and itā€™s AUs and more into Honkai Star Rail, Genshin Impact, Bungo Stray Dogs, and some VTuber stuff, and i might just delete the old stories, rename this account, and write about that instead. 
          
          
          If I do end up restarting tho, Iā€™ll probably change my username to something along the lines of like NyxieStix or something like that, cuz thatā€™s a nickname my friend gave me
          
          
          Anyway, yeah, thatā€™s it

Axirax101

@I_Ship_CrossMare_ W genshin Impact! btw do what you want and i'll read
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NyxieStixx

I want a story with Blade from Honkai Star Rail, but as a vampire. 
          
          
          I donā€™t care what the ship is, I donā€™t care what the main theme is, I donā€™t care if itā€™s angst or fluff or whatever.
          
          
          I donā€™t even care if itā€™s just a one shot.
          
          
          I just want to see vampire Blade. 
          
          
          
          
          
          Please tell me Iā€™m not the only one who wants to see that. 
          
          I mean seriously, I canā€™t be the only one

NyxieStixx

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Yā€™all, I think my cat is mad at me
          
          I literally got her like three months ago, and then I ended up going to South Carolina for like three weeks which is really bad timing but I didnā€™t have the time to change any of the plans before I had to go so I had to leave her home- 
          
          So I know that part of the problem is that I was gone for so long, but I didnā€™t think sheā€™d be this mad about it 
          
          And she was with my parents for the whole time, and then I get back and itā€™s like she canā€™t decide if she missed me or if she wants to murder me 
          
          I been home for like two or three days now and sheā€™s torn both my arms up so badly it looks like I tripped into a pile of razor blades. I could just be sitting on my bed and sheā€™ll climb up and immediately attack me, and then when I finally think sheā€™s done with the violence, sheā€™ll jump up and try to attack my face
          
          Then like three minutes later sheā€™ll try to sleep next to me, and if I try to get up and leave the room sheā€™ll dig her claws into my arm again so I canā€™t leave and idk what tf I did and I also donā€™t know how tf to deal with this 
          
          Do I try to train her or something? Do I just wait and hope she calms down sometime soon? Seriously what the fuck do I do like I never thought I would be so afraid of such a small and adorable creature and yet here I am being terrorized by a cat who is barely any bigger than a fucking water bottle 

NyxieStixx

@Charmingxlotss the funny thing is that Iā€™ve had cats before but Iā€™ve never had this sort of problem with any of them so I really donā€™t know what to do but Iā€™m sure Iā€™ll figure it out
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NyxieStixx

@Charmingxlotss ok, so now I just gotta figure out how to do that
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NyxieStixx

Ok, so, Iā€™m considering the idea of starting to write againā€¦ and I need some opinions or ideas of what I should do cuz I am physically incapable of making that decision on my own. 
          
          Also, while I am still sorta into Undertale and all itā€™s AUs, Iā€™m more so into stuff like Bungo Stray Dogs or Demon Slayer now.. so chances are Iā€™d write more about that instead if I did start again.
          
          And a lot of my already existing stories would either be abandoned completely or discontinued until further notice. 
          
          Iā€™m having issues deciding on if Iā€™ll do that or not, but if I do, itā€™ll mainly be stories about certain animes or games. Maybe a few crossover stories. 
          
          The fandoms Iā€™d probably stick with the most would be Bungo Stray Dogs, Obey Me, and Fruits Basket. 
          
          Iā€™m also starting to get back into the Creepypasta fandom, which is odd since from what Iā€™ve seen that fandom is mostly deadā€¦ so that may be another option.. 
          
          Really though, I just want as many ideas and opinions as I can get since itā€™ll be easier to decide what to do once I see what other people think..
          
          So, umā€¦ anybody have anything to say about that, or..?

NyxieStixx

I have seen a lot of scary stuff, but the one thing that scares me more than anything is Makima from Chainsaw Man.
          
          
          For those of you who have seen the anime or have read the manga, Iā€™m sure you know why.

NyxieStixx

@Charmingxlotss Iā€™ve actually met people like that before. They act nice but turn out to be crazy and sadistic.. itā€™s sorta scary to think about how somebody could be like that, regardless on if itā€™s a real person or a fictional character..
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NyxieStixx

@Charmingxlotss sheā€™s just creepy in general. Itā€™s weird tho cuz sheā€™s also sorta pretty.. like a creepy doll or something, you know? Pretty but scary.. and it makes sense considering all the stuff sheā€™s done and her entire personality as a whole. Itā€™s like you wouldnā€™t know sheā€™s evil when you first meet her unless you look really closely, otherwise youā€™ll find out too lateā€¦
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NyxieStixx

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Iā€™m boutta go on a rant so sorry if this annoys people but I need to vent
          
          
          Iā€™ve been sick for a really long time now. I canā€™t even remember how much time itā€™s been. I just know it started some time near the end of last year. Maybe in late November? Idk.. 
          
          But itā€™s like I keep coughing and it got to the point where my throat is closing up cuz of how bad the coughs are. And I donā€™t have the energy to stand up and walk around so Iā€™ll just be tryna go to class and suddenly collapse in the hallway only to wake up again a few seconds later with my back against the wall cuz I fell backwards into it. 
          
          And Iā€™ve been unable to sleep for a while, and then when I do sleep, I wake up with pain everywhere. And as of two days ago the pain has not stopped. Is just a constant dull ache in my entire body that gets worse as time goes on. 
          
          I went to the store with my mom today to get some ibuprofen and some allergy meds cuz apparently those are supposed to help, and the lights almost looked like they were flickering. And I asked my mom if she saw them and she said she didnā€™t. 
          
          And now Iā€™m sitting in the living room curled up on the couch with a blanket and one of the many stuffed animals I have because I need comfort cuz Iā€™m in the goddamn living room at 5:00 in the morning having a fucking mental breakdown cuz of all this shit Iā€™m being put through that has no fuckin explanation and I canā€™t talk to nobody cuz everyone I know is still asleep

Charmingxlotss

@I_Ship_CrossMare_  hey don't be scared we're here 
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NyxieStixx

Iā€™m just really scared right now
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NyxieStixx

And my friends have been asking me whenever I do manage to show up to school whatā€™s been going on with me and I canā€™t explain it cuz I donā€™t even know.  
            
            My responses to them over the past month or two have slowly gone from tired but mostly sane to panicked rambling and almost crying. 
            
            Itā€™s either Iā€™ve lost my mind from sleep deprivation, the constant pain, or the lack of oxygen 
            
            ā€¦ 
            
            or maybe itā€™s cuz I keep forgetting to eat and I donā€™t remember when the last time I ate anything more than an apple or two in a day was
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NyxieStixx

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I am simping respectfully for yet another anime characterā€¦ 
          
          
          Also, yes, I once again disobeyed the very threatening opinions of my three best friends that all seem to agree that I should finish at least five of the 17 animes I have already started before starting another oneā€¦
          
          
          One of them even said that heā€™d take my kneecap privileges if I did T^T
          
          
          But I decided I donā€™t give a fuck since he knows damn well he could never beat me in a fight :P
          
          
          ā€¦..
          
          
          ANYWAY, SOā€”
          
          I started watching Jujutsu Kaisen, andā€¦ umā€¦
          
          
          I know heā€™s technically a villainā€¦ and he also isnā€™t even a humanā€¦ and heā€™s a sadistic motherfucker who doesnā€™t give a damn about anybody elseā€¦ and is like apparently one of the most scary characters in the showā€¦ but likeā€¦
          
          
          Why is Sukuna so hot tho? 
          
          I mean, yes, mostā€” if not allā€” of the time when we see him he just looks like a scary version of Itadori with a lotta tattoos and shit.. but damn..
          
          
          Likeā€¦ honestlyā€¦ 
          
          
          
          He could walk over me as if I was the goddamn floorā€¦ and I would thank him. 
          
          
          
          ā€¦ā€¦
          
          
          
          Anyway, letā€™s ignore the fact that I need to go to rehab and therapy for some very obvious reasonsā€”
          
          
          How was everyoneā€™s day today?