Sorry im responding so late, i didn’t know what to say at first because its honestly hard to put in words.
But i wanted to say im soo sorry that this is happening to you, ik it’s not easy. i personally know how it is and its honestly heartbreaking; (sorry for little vent) i know first hand of how that disappointment is, when someone makes a plan, but then end up coming out as a disappointment, kind of makes you feel unwanted. it’s disheartening to know this is happening to you, but just know that everything is going to be okay soon.