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My mom is suspicious of me self harming now and asked if I need help. After she and my dad basically called my suicidal sister an attention seeker and were pissed they had to spend money for her to get help so told her she'd have to pay for all of it herself I don't think I'm going to tell her. If we end up getting in an argument after I do get help she'll just bring up the money she had to spend on me. 

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@PainfulNewsense 
          	  That is probably wise. I feel like with the place you and your parents are at right now, therapy would probably make the mental issues worse for the very same reason you fear. 
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PainfulNewsense

My mom is suspicious of me self harming now and asked if I need help. After she and my dad basically called my suicidal sister an attention seeker and were pissed they had to spend money for her to get help so told her she'd have to pay for all of it herself I don't think I'm going to tell her. If we end up getting in an argument after I do get help she'll just bring up the money she had to spend on me. 

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@PainfulNewsense 
            That is probably wise. I feel like with the place you and your parents are at right now, therapy would probably make the mental issues worse for the very same reason you fear. 
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afterreading-

You are enough 
          And if you aren't good enough for everyone else
          You're enough for me and that won't be changing
          
          You changed almost completely from when we first met lol, remember? 
          And I'm still here for you and always will be and I mean this- 
          You are my girlfriend, even if it is just a joke relationship heh <33

afterreading-

Life's alright in Devil Town
          Yeah, right, no one's gonna catch us now
          Dad has bought a new car now
          We're fine, no one's gonna catch us now (okay)
          
          You said something dumb again
          She's mad, at least that's what they say
          Mum and daddy aren't in love
          That's fine, I'll settle for two birthdays
          
          Devil Town is colder in the summertime
          I'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
          Hold my hand tight, we'll make it another night
          I still get a little scared of something new
          But I feel a little safer when I'm with you
          Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you've fallen this way too
          
          We're all dead in Devil Town
          That's fine 'cause nothing's gonna scare us now
          We're all in our dressing gowns
          Mine's white and stripy, yours is green and brown
          
          I forgot my name again
          I think that's something worth remembering
          Spiders in your favourite shoes
          Just leave them be 'cause they're more scared of you
          
          Devil Town is colder in the summertime
          I'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
          Hold my hand tight, we'll make it another night
          I still get a little scared of something new
          But I feel a little safer when I'm with you
          Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you've fallen this way too
          
          Devil Town is colder in the summertime
          I'll lose my mind at least another thousand times
          Hold my hand tight, we'll make it another night
          I still get a little scared of something new
          But I feel a little safer when I'm with you
          Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you've fallen this way too
          
          ~Devil Town by Cavetown

afterreading-

You are so ducking loved Yoki
          If not by your family then by me
          And if you never see this
          Idc, it will remain true 

PainfulNewsense

@afterreading- thank you I love you too 
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PainfulNewsense

My mom told me she couldn't afford new clothes for me but then she spends $54 dollars on doordash to get alcohol lol 

mxsophisticated

this is oddly relatable, wanna be friends? lmao
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