PeaceCipher

I'm gonna sleep well tonight I know it and I'll be able to fall asleep easily
          (I'm just hoping to speak it into existence) but I have a lot of factors working against me, including, but not limited to:
          -School just started again (stress +100)
          -Time differences (3 hours, I've been here for a week now so I should be okay but here we are)
          -Im starting to take my medication again (an ssri and antihistamine that's also known to be a KO drug (ironic, innit??)) Tbh whenever get off track with my meds I my sleep is thrown off
          I just really need sleep. Melatonin works, but I'm knocked out for 10-12 hours and I'm tired for the rest of the day so I can only afford it on weekends. I don't have access to tea rn and I'm swamped in hw so I'm on screens 24/7 now... wish me luck ;u;

I cannot wait to go home. I leave Friday afternoon and it's Monday night. I have 5 finals standing in the way of me and happiness.
          Listen, this first semester of college has been fun and all but man I'm so tired and burnt out ;u; like damn high school definitely didn't prepare me for this shit (and I took 7 ap classes over the years)
          I'll comment when I'm finally home. I'm just so excited I already plan on making a lasagna when the next day (bc I land late lol otherwise I would be making it the same day)

YALL
          I FOUND AN 'ALL' BOOK
          ITS GOT
          -trauma 
          -vampires
          -gaë
          -a decent amount of reads, but not too many
          -a charismatic author
          -a trigger warning
          -a playlist
          -and best of all? CHARACTER DESC INSTEAD OF ACTORS AHHHHH

If you don't support the freeing of Palestine eff off I don't want you here
          FREE PALESTINE!!!!!

YALL
          I WAS N O T
          READY
          TO BE THIS INVESTED IN THE PJO SHOW
          I JUST HEARD THE SONG THEY USED FOR THE TRAILER AND OMFG
          RIPTIDE Y E S S SSSSSSSSSS
          THEN I WATCHED THE TRAILER
          I SOBBED
          ARGH YESSSSS
          DEC 20TH HERE I COME

Me, walking around campus w/an umbrella even tho it's sunny bc I have a sun allergy so if I get direct sunlight for more than 5 minutes my face will swell:
          
          Some random old guy: H E Y YOU DONT NEED AN UMBRELLA, THE RAIN STOPPED HA HA H A A A
          
          Me:
          
          Me: YOU'RE SO F U C K I N G F U N N Y BOB. OH WAIT LEMME TELL A JOKE NEXT: hey you don't need to dress like you care anymore YOUR WIFE ALREADY LEFT YOU HA HA H A A A A -_-

Up until now, the oddest thing I ever cooked at 1am was yakisoba for my sister. Now, I can say I made a whole áss lasagna at 1am and maaaaan I forgot how hard those things are to cook while simultaneously doing everything>:0

Having a kinda dysfunctional family ( ◡‿◡ *)♡♡♡♡ <<<<<<<<<

Do any of yall know that like "spectrum" of depression downs you have when you go through your depressive downs? Like personally, mine goes from mad -> sad -> enraged - > tired -> numb (mad is the least intense, numb is the most)
          Like dude I've felt between tired and numb like all the time. And after just getting out of bed and heading to my least favorite class first thing, I'm tapped out on feeling anything. I'm apathetic about e v e r y t h i n g by the time third period starts.
          So imagine exactly how shocked my ass was to feel genuinely upset about something else that wasn't in a book. Like dude I actually f e l t something about my own f v c k i n g life. At this point I'm kinda shocked
          Idk if this is a good thing or a horribly bad thing

Back on a (more) positive note 
          But listen here yall
          L i s t e n n n
          I just l o v e it when character A is like all battered and beaten and has all of these ☆trust issues☆ and character B just like realizes that A needs care so B makes them take a bath. A realizes how much they need to be taken care of, so they feel themself begin to relax into B's touch as B washes their hair. A finally feels like theyre in peace as they feel their eyes winding shut in the midst of the bath. B's hands are on them. But like,,, not even in a romantic/seggual way. Just A trusts B so much that they feel comfortable enough doze off while naked, beaten, and vulnerable. A realizes they can t r u s t and l o v e someone. Finally.
          
          LIKE HELLO
          I-F.CKING-MAGINE
          BEING t h a t CLOSE TO SOMEONE. HAVING t h a t KINDA RELATIONSHIP????
          ahhHhhhhHHHHH-
          AND LIKE THE FRIGGIN CHERRY ON TOP??? THEY FRIGGIN CUDDLE ALL NIGHT AND KEEP EACH OTHER WARM AKSNEKKEPWOERB3I3PAHD-----