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Halo!!

Man, I miss writing so much. I miss having a book to regularly update, already looking forward to what people would comment. I miss being so passionate about something that I was creating. Hopefully when I have nothing else to focus my energy towards I'll be able to start working on something again <3

Thank you so much to follow me :)

Bro, I was about to mention that I believe in Jesus and God too, and am a gay guy when I saw that other person on your board. I’m sorry about their behaviour, God is disappointed in them for judging you.

favourite ONCE character and ship go. 

Slightly good news:
          Actually, first of all, some bad news for everyone who enjoyed Falling Apart. A while ago I realised that through one of its drafts, I hurt one of my closest friends. It's a long story, but I'll summarise by saying that she had a boundary, set rather clearly, and I crossed it. We've made up and she forgives me, thank the Lord, but I didn't realise the extent of how much I hurt her until I talked with her about it. Because of that it doesn't really feel appropriate to continue Falling Apart. For a while I had the idea of working on it so I could one day get it professionally published, but there's a number of things wrong with that: mainly the fact that its main characters were based on my friends, and the narrator based on me; and I've heard that publishers will never publish a story if they get the gist that the main character is basically an author-insert. While I'm sure that's not the case for every single publisher, I agree with its statement.
          Also, the cast of characters is too vast to properly work on them and do them justice with characterisation, especially since most of the friends they were based on I've lost touch with. On top of that, I do have ideas for Falling Apart, but overall I have not a clue where the main story is going or what it's trying to achieve.
          I won't unpublish Falling Apart, because it was inspired by the lovely @JuneFlowers24 's "Payback" and stands as a sentiment of love to my friends (despite my short-sightedness originally). 
          Instead, I've finally been collating all the ideas I've wanted to write about for an original work into ideas for one story. I want to write the story that I want to write, even if that means it's similar to already published works. "Great artists steal." And that's not to say that Falling Apart was totally original either.
          Since I've just gone into Year 12 and have lots of stuff to tackle, I doubt my writing mojo will be back anytime soon. But yeah, that's where I'm at.
          Much love. <3

so sorry about not updating anything for like... months, guys. I've actually just been out of all ideas for like a year which means no motivation to write, I've been struggling. plus I'm heading into Year 12 now which means lots of work towards my HSC, and then after that is just gonna be applications for university and best case scenario is I get into a uni and then I don't even know, but I imagine less free time than high school. and then after that it's either nine to five dead-end job or... I don't know.
          so I guess my days of having it easy, except for the holidays hopefully, are mostly behind me. I'm not even worried about that; moreso my creativity. I'm worried I've lost it or something, and that's why I've had like extended writers' block for over a year. it's like I've slipped from being a writer actively to being a writer passively. I dunno.
          so yeah, that's where I'm at with writing at the moment. I write tiny things here and there (like in my short stories book) but mostly what I do are forever WIPs that I don't publish. uh. I dunno why I'm writing this now. just in case you guys wanted some transparency.

I consider myself to be a writer (editing and refining old fanfiction chapters while almost never working on originals)

why have I lost motivation to write and ideas to write about. this is worrying

Guys my family and I are now on Season 5 Part 2 of Teen Wolf and OH MY GOD I MISS THE SIMPLICITY OF SEASON ONE-3A SO MUCH. SO MUCH SHIT HAS HAPPENED NOW THAT BEING A TEENAGE WEREWOLF IS AN AFTERTHOUGHT.
          
          I miss Allison. I miss lacrosse. I miss Scott and Stiles being young and making mistakes. I miss Derek. I miss Peter being the Alpha. I miss Scott being out of control and Allison being the anchor. I miss the hierarchy of high school. I miss Scott and Allison's cute teenager sappy love story. I miss the Romeo and Juliet-esque werewolf x werewolf hunter trope. I miss the sneaking around so only a select few people knew about the supernatural. I miss Morrell. I miss Lydia being a queen bee. I miss Jackson being a jackass. I miss Coach. I miss Danny. I miss the cliche "supernatural navigating their way through high school" storyline. I miss the innocence. I miss the characters being clueless as to what's happening with them and their scramble for answers to questions they should never have had to ask.
          I miss it all so much.
          
          SPOILERS, now we have an Alpha Scott who can do no wrong. Now we have Lydia being cryptic and out of her mind most of the time. Now we have Stiles being more mature. Now we have all new characters. Now we have all these new supernaturals.
          
          I'm glad we still have Melissa. I'm glad we still have Sheriff Stilinski and Alan Deaton(/"Uncle D" as I like to call him) and Braeden and Chris.
          I'm glad we have new characters like Mason and Liam and Hayden and Corey and Malia and Kira. 
          
          In my honest opinion, Seasons 1 - 3A (3a=Jennifer Blake storyline, before the Void Stiles arc) is PEAK Teen Wolf. I obviously am still relatively new to the fandom having only joined about a year ago, so I don't really get to judge what works for Teen Wolf and what doesn't – but that's what I think. 
          Honestly I think season 1-3a has become a comfort to me. I miss it. 
          But that's the wonderful thing about books and movies: you can always revisit them and relive the stories. <3