Dawn Carol

Hi 

Hey, I love your The Ghost King Goes to Hogwarts book.  Do you think you can write and upload another chapter?

I need to rant but I cant rant to anybody bc my best friend isn't responding plus i cant cal her bc my parents listen to everything I say and I cant talk to my famiy bc they r the thing i need to rant about
          :(
          Does anyone wana talkkkk?

Guysss!! I got reached out to by a website called W e b n o v e l s and Im super happy bc they want my book on their thing!
          
          
          But obviously im not giving it to them lol
          They're a legitimate website and all but ik they just try to steal books for money and they mass message so im not that special buttttttttt i still think its cool plus they read it and i got more veiws on my story lol
          But again not getting back to them or any of that crap bc i dont want to be pulled into anything complicated plus this story is just something fun i do like once every month lol
          But yes this is my update for... life... fun!

I'm sorry but i HAVE to clear this up.
          CHRISTIANS ARE NOT HOMOPHOBES!! 
          For the love of anything good we are not frickin homophobes!!
           I fullsupport all LGBT, and everyone in my church will support anyone and everyone who walks who our doors, we do NOT disapprove of any beliefs we take people as they are and love them as our bible tells us too. now there are some horrible christian who are homophobes but there are also atheisist who are homophobes so do not say that christians or catholics are the ones who dont apporve because more likely than not we will love you no matter who you are or what youve done
          And I really dont understand the homophobes who use the bible as their justification for their disgusting behavior. Because theyre over here getting mad at LGBTQ but i bet every single one of them has fiends who arent christians, who have had sex before marage, who had even just kissed before marrage, technically if you go into the bible is says not to do that to somewhere but they dont shout them down and say their going to hell, just as the bible barley talks about same sex relationships but these homophobes try to use the bible as their justification ruining the reputations of true christian who love all no matter what and that is just sickening
          Those peope are NOT real chrisitans I promise you.
          I am an assexual christian and I will fully support and love everyone no matter what, and everyone needs to know that true christians feelthe exact same.

But any way I had to get y blood tested to check if I have cancer or whatever bc I've been having a consistent low grade fever since like jan and really really bad muscle and join pain, plus chest pain, and migranes, and like 5 ppl in my family died from cancer and we have 3 surivors from it- all this on my moms side- and there isn't a single person in either my moms or my dads that doesnt have really bad heart problems (2 of my grandmas and 3 of my grandpas (incleding grets) died of heart attacks in their middle ages)
          So thats not good.
          But I feel better now so we're good :)
          I'll tell y'all what the resullts are- pray for meee (or like just cross your fingers if you don't beliee in that stoof :))

Y'all I died tdy.
          I had to get my blood taken tdy and let me just say my one and only phobia is needles. Like legit I will literally have a metal break down being anywhere near them, screaming and crying and just... you know... DYING
          Even tho im typically a pretty chill person
          But guess what i had to do tdy!
          
          
          
          
          GET MY FREAKIN BLOOD STOLEN BY VAMPIRES WEARING SCRUBS AND TTACKING ME WITH FRICKIN NEEDLES!!!
          
          
          
          So needles to say- ha I just spelt needless wrong but im leaving it: PUNZ- I almost died from hyperventilation and almost murdered the nurse and my mother- my mom now has deep nail marks in her hands from me gripping them so tightly (And yes im allowed to hold my moms hand even tho im in middle school! Fite me) 
          
          But you know its fine. Im fine. Everythings fine.
          
          
          
          
          
          I need help.

Okay maybe that was alot, but if you have the time try to read this :) Remember reas the posts top to bottom (or atleast on mine you have to)

Be careful. Don't hurt others. No matter how good it makes you feel, or how good the outcome is for you. Don't. You don't want to be a murderer. You don't want to be the cause for something horrible.
          
           But also remember that it will get better. And I know! I know how many times you guys have heard this but it will. I promise you. Even if it takes 50 years it will get better! Don't, please don't hurt yourself. I mean, of course I'm being the biggest hypocrite in the world and I have absolutly no right to say this but, please. Please, don't. 
          
          When a flood comes don't just build a dam. That's what I've done since 2nd grade. And guess what? My dam can't possibly get anyhigher. But the flood won't stop. And as the days go on there's another crack, another leak. And when the dam comes tumbing down... well what can you do?
          
          No. When a flood comes let it come. If you don't know how to ride a wave then just let it come. Just make sure you can stay afloat. Even if it's just the very tip of your nose. Just keep breathing. Don't get dragged under by the tide. Don't let it build up.
          
          Just accept it. And the floods will get lesser. Though, everything has to get worse before it can get better. I don't know how long your worse period will be but the bible says something along the lines of God will not give you more than you can handle and though in the moment it doesn't seem like that God will always be here to help you. to be your sounding board when there's no one else there.
          
          And please try to believe that. I'm not telling you what to believe, but just think about it. Consider maybe there are greater things at work in this world. And maybe... just maybe... theres' hope for us after all.

Everything about me is there for a reason. Everyone of my deciions or opinions are there for a reason. And all of them are because of another human being. 
          
          i don't want to get married. I refuse to even let myself think of dating another human being. Because of a single experience. A single heart break. A single betrayal. So I closed off the romantic part of me, and threw away the key.
          
          That's just one example. 
          
          But there are so many other people who are just like me. ANd everyoen needs to understand this. I can't stress this enough. Please, I'm begging you, think of what you say before you say it. Don't just put yourself in someone elses shoes, put youself in their mind. What thye could be feeling or thinking. How you could hurt them. 
          
          Do you know how many times I've thought of killing myself? How many tims I just want everything to fade, to leave, to let me be at peace? Now I don't say this for any of yur pity or "understanding" because no one understands me. Just as I can never fully understand another human being either. Most of the time we don't understand oursleves. I know I don't.
          
          But everyone just needs to remember. You don't know. You don't understand. You could never ever understand. And that's fine. But never go up to someone and say that. Because you don't know what's going on inside their heads. You don't know what's going on at home. You don't know.
          
          And I know I've been changing subject really quickly talking about one thing to an other- I'm not really good at staying on track- but I just want everyone to know from this.