@ProjectMerlin
My cousin got into a car accident with her family, she's okay though. She got a slight concussion and broke her collarbone. The rest of her family is mostly okay, save for a few cuts and bruises. Her grandfather is still being examined right now, though, I'm not sure if he's fine. Please, please, pray for her family.
Okay, I can't remember if I ever considered this but, on the cover of Legacy (squeal), what if Sophie is enhancing Fitz and Keefe? She isn't wearing gloves because of the enhancing blocker thingy but she could have turned off the enhancing blocker thingy, too. Just saying.
Guys, it has been about a year since I first found out Wattpad existed. I am officially a teenager today (I know, right? I'm so young) and I am going to miss my childhood. Eighth grade, here I come (eventually). I'll miss all my memories of being young, being able to do what I want, since now I have to study for high school. Then comes college. And then the real world.
You guys, I was on Insta earlier and this person was saying that most people were thinking about the handholding on the Legacy color and she noticed the legwarmers. I KNEW I WASN'T THE ONLY ONE!!!
Somehow, I started talking to my friend about my piano teacher, since she used to play the piano. She used the term "emotionally abusive" and I have to say, that describes her. My piano teacher, I mean. Well, she's emotionally abusive but mostly hides it. And she's so passive-aggressive she makes my head explode and makes me want to punch her and head-butt her at the same time. That would be hard. This past piano lesson, she was making me play a song for her. I messed up once and she asked me what I was thinking when I made the mistake. If she knew, she would kill me. So I told her I was daydreaming a bit. I was really thinking that she was ruining my life. Yes, my little teenage attitude was thinking that. And I thought that she couldn't even play the part of the song I messed up on. Not to mention that I learned it in three days. But I couldn't say that to her because I have piano lessons every week and she'd ask why I didn't practice it before. Well, I had homework. As most kids my age do. And, sorry, but homework comes before piano. Even my mom says arts are not a worthy profession for me or my brother. She also said other stuff...but that's for another rant. Anyway, yeah. My life is...I can't describe it in one word. So I'll leave it up to you. Bye!
And yes, I'm making it smaller than it really is just to keep myself in check so I don't explode and blow it out of proportion. I am generally a happy person at school. My teachers think I'm quiet and I do my work. I get good grades. I have friends. I joke around with them. I complain about school. Of course I do, I'm human. At home, I try to isolate myself. I do my homework and projects in my room and not in the dining room like my brother. Partly because I'm used to it. Mostly because I don't want to start a fight and I most certainly don't want to be caught in the middle of one. I'll go downstairs to eat or to practice piano or to print something. Otherwise, I steer clear and just go downstairs when my parents are ready to be civil with each other. I spend time doing things so I don't have to go downstairs when we're all home. My dad makes an effort not to talk to us. He'll shush us if he's watching the news and turn on the TV so we can't talk to him during dinner. He'll watch TV instead of spending time with us and listen to music in his room to avoid us. Just writing this makes me realize what lengths he goes to in order to avoid us. My brother is in the middle of it all. For that, I pity him. He has to pick a side when they get into an argument because he's listening to them fight. No wonder it takes so long for him to do his homework. Please, help me fix this screwed up life. Help me either convince my dad to change or convince my mom we'll be fine if they divorce. Because I don't think my dad's ever going to change. He never has changed. Google can't help me this time. What do I do now?
Okay, guys, rant time. I know a lot of things for my age. I don't act childish, but I get when people are making a joke. This is not a joking matter. I've told my mom on multiple occasions that she can get divorced if she wants. It's a big deal, but I'm okay with it. My brother probably is, too. But she doesn't even consider it, since she says that marriage is to honor God. I get it, I do. Make the big guy happy. But what about you? She's willing to sacrifice her happiness on this. Sure, he's my dad and I love him. But he needs to change and, truthfully, I can't take this. My dad has never been the best. He plays favorites whether he admits or not. His favorite happens to be me so he goes easier on me. But I know what he really is like. To everyone else, he makes it seem like we are a kind, loving family that has no problems. Well, news flash, we have problems. My dad will scream at my brother and mom if they do something wrong. Of course, this is recently. He wasn't always like this. He wouldn't talk to my mom during dinner after she did something he didn't like. Except that it's something he does on practically a daily basis. He says she's "becoming like her mom" and that means she's being passive-aggressive. Except she's not! I bet he doesn't know the definition of that word. My mom is nice, but she doesn't take garbage. Yet, she puts up with him. I can't stand him sometimes. If I'm honest, he's the passive-aggressive one. And he's a hypocrite. My mom always tells my brother and I this simple life lesson: when choosing a spouse, make sure it's not like Dad. And I know I will follow this advice even it means I stay single forever. Because if I can't find someone who makes me happy without driving me insane (in a bad way) then it's just not worth it. Their relationship is toxic. Another day, another fight. Another minute, another thing to fight over. In fact, my dad would be screaming at my mom right now if they were talking. I really need help now. Got any advice?
@ProjectMerlin I love you. I didn’t know. I’m sorry. Well talk. Just pray. And pray. Ask God to give you protection from the evils of this current world. Use music as your inspiration and your shield from everything. And talk to him. Please. I know him. He’ll listen to you.
@MollyIsADragonAuthor Thank you so much for your support! And, yes, I am a Christian. It's so nice to know that you are, too. I'm hoping that when Monday comes I can talk with my friends and get their support, as well.
@ProjectMerlin I'm sorry you have to go through this. Personally, I haven't had this problem, but I'll try to help. I have no idea if this is good advice or not. Try to talk to your dad. Tell him how much he's hurting you and the family. Tell him how you wish you all got along so you don't have to live in fear. Approach him diplomatically. Maybe over ice cream. Carefully plan out what you're going to say first. Speak from your heart. I don't know your dad, so I don't know if this will work. If you think he'll get mad at you, don't put yourself in harm's way. But maybe it will make him think about things, since you're his favorite. That may not work, but this will: pray. I don't know if you're Christian or not, or even believe in God. But I know that no matter how hard things get, or what you believe, God will help you if you ask Him. I know He's answered my prayers. Ask Him to help your dad to change. Ask Him if it would be better for your mom to get a divorce, and to help her realize that if that's the case. Look at the good things in life, and thank Him for them. Ask for comfort and peace, and He will send it. Keep in mind, you may not see the answers right away, but they will come. It's all in the Lord's time. You should also definitely find someone to confide in. I know you've told us, but find someone closer that you can talk to in person. Maybe a close friend, a teacher, or a counselor. They will help you get through it. Most of all, remember you are never alone. Sadly, there are plenty of people out there who have gone through what you are going through---ARE going through what you are going through---and maybe even worse. Find those people and talk to them. They will be able to help you more than I can. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I hope this helped. I believe in you.
Hey, a tip for those of you who don't have Insta or Twitter but want to see the cover of Legacy. Search up "Instagram Shannon Messenger" and then click the first link. It should take you to her profile and then you can see the cover. Or you could try searching "legacy cover kotlc" but idk if it works.
Also, Keefe's hair kinda looks like it's blowing up. Fitz's is somehow still shaped so perfectly. I still like Keefe better.
Also Sophie is wearing leg warmers. Must be winter in London.
