Feeling depressed because I have been trying to find someone that will hire me but they want someone with experience. And feeling even worse since I need experience for a job.
I've applied everywhere that I could, and I haven't heard back from any of them.
Three years out of high school and you would think that I'd have my life together by now. But I'm right back where I was three years ago when I graduated from high school.
I've made no progress. I've made no money. And whenever I go to write my mind wanders making it difficult to stay on task.
I want to cry and scream until my throat bleeds and my eyes burn but I can't because I'm so physically numb from the constant drop in my expectations. I'm so out of touch with my feelings that I feel like I have become a raging bitch that lashes out at her loved ones because of how helpless I feel.
I don't like to feel as helpless as I do, and I don't have a healthy way to vent out my frustrations. And I'm frustrated because I want a chance to work somewhere part time for at least 6 months to a year, and no one is giving me a chance.
Thank you for reading this, and to those who were hoping for good news let me give you more bad news.
Until I am able to find work or earn money from my skills, I won't be writing on Wattpad, AO3, Fanfiction.net, or Tumblr for free anymore.
My stories that are on my accounts are not up for adoption to anyone wondering.
