RandomHearts82

Hello readers,
          	
          	Iā€™ve been meaning to post this message for a while now, but I wanted to gather my thoughts, and had hoped maybe my feelings would change if I gave it some time. If this makes you nervous, itā€™s not exactly what youā€™re most likely thinkingā€¦not yet anyway.
          	
          	At this point in time, Iā€™m honestly rather unsure on if the story will be continued. Itā€™s not that Iā€™ve lost an interest in writing, as I have ideas for other fandoms. Itā€™s more about this story in particular, for several reasons.
          	
          	One: you all most likely know by now, via previous messages, that my interest in GA has significantly gone downhill. It started when I could no longer watch episodes (via legal means) here in Canada anymore. That was a few years ago now. On top of that, when I was still watching, I found the focus of the investigations changed from when I first started. I found they became more about demons than ghosts, and while I know theyā€™re intertwined in some ways, my interest lies more with ā€œis there an afterlife?ā€ 
          	
          	Continuedā€¦

RandomHearts82

With all that said, Iā€™m really unsure at this point on what Iā€™m going to do. I feel absolutely terrible when I think of not continuing the story, knowing you guys have been so supportive over the years. However, I also feel like my writing has gone down hill in the last number of chapters, and would only continue to get worse if I continue.
          	  
          	  I wanted to post this so message so youā€™d all know I havenā€™t forgotten about the story, and mainly just to be honest with where Iā€™m at. Iā€™m also curious to see any opinions you guys may have. I know my lack of updates are likely the cause, but I feel like the story doesnā€™t have the following that it used to, so that kinda affects my thoughts on continuing too.
          	  
          	  Whatever I decide, and Iā€™m not sure when that will be, Iā€™ll let you know. If I happen to decide not to continue with the story, Iā€™d be willing to at least share a brief summary of what my planned ending would be if you guys want. Or maybe I could even do an FAQ sort of thing, where Iā€™d give you guys some time to send in your questions about the story, and Iā€™d post my answers to the best of my ability. Again, let me know what you think.
          	  
          	  I apologize for this news. I dreaded posting this, but you guys have honestly been the best readers I could have hoped for, so you deserve the truth.
          	  
          	  Lots of love,
          	  Alicia
          	  
          	  P.S. Even though Iā€™ve posted this to Twitter/X, Tumblr, and my Wattpad newsfeed, I decided to post this as a new ā€œchapterā€ across all three sites as well, so thatā€™s easier for you guys to leave your thoughts. Especially since my Tumblr blog is a mess, and severely needs a makeover.
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RandomHearts82

Two: I do still have some ideas, and a basic idea of how I want to end the story, but during the last several months of trying to write new chapters, I realized Iā€™ve done a terrible job (in my opinion) in terms of pacing in the world Iā€™ve created. Since Zak and Alicia met, itā€™s been roughly one year and six months. I realize in the real world, many relationships progress faster than Iā€™ve written, but I feel like in order to end the story how I imagine, Iā€™d have to do a bunch of time jumps. I feel like thatā€™s crappy writing on my part, but maybe itā€™s just my opinion.
          	  
          	  Third & last: probably the most important reason to my indecisionā€¦Iā€™ve grown a lot mentally since the story started. While I still have my issues with mental health, and my day to day life hasnā€™t really changed, the idea of continuing to write a fan fiction based on actual living peopleā€¦well, it kinda makes me uncomfortable now. I mean absolutely no offence to those that do, and while I obviously realize my perception of these real life people is extremely likely to be inaccurate of who they really are, I canā€™t help the way I feel. I think the main thing that brought me to this realization is the fact that the other ideas for stories in other fandoms I have, are all 100 percent fictional characters.
          	  
          	  Continuedā€¦
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RandomHearts82

Hello readers,
          
          Iā€™ve been meaning to post this message for a while now, but I wanted to gather my thoughts, and had hoped maybe my feelings would change if I gave it some time. If this makes you nervous, itā€™s not exactly what youā€™re most likely thinkingā€¦not yet anyway.
          
          At this point in time, Iā€™m honestly rather unsure on if the story will be continued. Itā€™s not that Iā€™ve lost an interest in writing, as I have ideas for other fandoms. Itā€™s more about this story in particular, for several reasons.
          
          One: you all most likely know by now, via previous messages, that my interest in GA has significantly gone downhill. It started when I could no longer watch episodes (via legal means) here in Canada anymore. That was a few years ago now. On top of that, when I was still watching, I found the focus of the investigations changed from when I first started. I found they became more about demons than ghosts, and while I know theyā€™re intertwined in some ways, my interest lies more with ā€œis there an afterlife?ā€ 
          
          Continuedā€¦

RandomHearts82

With all that said, Iā€™m really unsure at this point on what Iā€™m going to do. I feel absolutely terrible when I think of not continuing the story, knowing you guys have been so supportive over the years. However, I also feel like my writing has gone down hill in the last number of chapters, and would only continue to get worse if I continue.
            
            I wanted to post this so message so youā€™d all know I havenā€™t forgotten about the story, and mainly just to be honest with where Iā€™m at. Iā€™m also curious to see any opinions you guys may have. I know my lack of updates are likely the cause, but I feel like the story doesnā€™t have the following that it used to, so that kinda affects my thoughts on continuing too.
            
            Whatever I decide, and Iā€™m not sure when that will be, Iā€™ll let you know. If I happen to decide not to continue with the story, Iā€™d be willing to at least share a brief summary of what my planned ending would be if you guys want. Or maybe I could even do an FAQ sort of thing, where Iā€™d give you guys some time to send in your questions about the story, and Iā€™d post my answers to the best of my ability. Again, let me know what you think.
            
            I apologize for this news. I dreaded posting this, but you guys have honestly been the best readers I could have hoped for, so you deserve the truth.
            
            Lots of love,
            Alicia
            
            P.S. Even though Iā€™ve posted this to Twitter/X, Tumblr, and my Wattpad newsfeed, I decided to post this as a new ā€œchapterā€ across all three sites as well, so thatā€™s easier for you guys to leave your thoughts. Especially since my Tumblr blog is a mess, and severely needs a makeover.
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RandomHearts82

Two: I do still have some ideas, and a basic idea of how I want to end the story, but during the last several months of trying to write new chapters, I realized Iā€™ve done a terrible job (in my opinion) in terms of pacing in the world Iā€™ve created. Since Zak and Alicia met, itā€™s been roughly one year and six months. I realize in the real world, many relationships progress faster than Iā€™ve written, but I feel like in order to end the story how I imagine, Iā€™d have to do a bunch of time jumps. I feel like thatā€™s crappy writing on my part, but maybe itā€™s just my opinion.
            
            Third & last: probably the most important reason to my indecisionā€¦Iā€™ve grown a lot mentally since the story started. While I still have my issues with mental health, and my day to day life hasnā€™t really changed, the idea of continuing to write a fan fiction based on actual living peopleā€¦well, it kinda makes me uncomfortable now. I mean absolutely no offence to those that do, and while I obviously realize my perception of these real life people is extremely likely to be inaccurate of who they really are, I canā€™t help the way I feel. I think the main thing that brought me to this realization is the fact that the other ideas for stories in other fandoms I have, are all 100 percent fictional characters.
            
            Continuedā€¦
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RandomHearts82

Hi all! Hope you all are well.
          
          I just finished writing one chapter, and Iā€™m about to watch the episode Iā€™m basing the next investigation on to get it fresh in mind. Iā€™m hoping to get another few chapters written, but if not, Iā€™ll proofread the chapter and post it soon.

RandomHearts82

Finally posted some new chapters!
          
          As previously announced, Iā€™m continuing the story within ā€œAngel of Lightā€. Please be sure to re-read chapters 136-138 (originally chapters 1-3 of the sequel), as some changes were made. 
          
          Hope you enjoy the update!

RandomHearts82

Hey readers! 
          Have an announcement to make (not a bad one, donā€™t worry).
          As most of you probably know, I donā€™t have much interest in GA anymore, but I do want to finish this story. I know how much it sucks to get involved in a story you like, only for it go unfinished.
          
          With that said, Iā€™ve decided to scrap the sequel, but instead continue to add chapters to ā€œAngel of Lightā€. I feel this is the best decision for me, as with a sequel, I feel pressure that it should be as long as the first story, & I really donā€™t feel that I have that in me.
          
          Now for the news you really want to hearā€¦
          I have reworked the first three chapters I had written, as I am scrapping a plot line I had planned for something smaller, & just now also wrote a new chapter! 
          
          Itā€™s past 2am here, so no updates right now. Iā€™d also like to try to get another new chapter or two written before posting, so itā€™s a proper update. 
          If I donā€™t get anymore new chapters written, once I proofread the chapters I do have, Iā€™ll post them.
          
          Hope you guys are okay with this decision. 
          Just to clarify, thereā€™s still plenty to come. I plan on including between 2-4 lockdowns, with life stuff in between.
          Thanks for your support and understanding. I hope everyone is doing well.

MichelleBroome

@RandomHearts82 I'm here for ya. Love your story.
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RandomHearts82

ā€œSomeoneā€ has commented on a chapter of ā€œAngel of Lightā€ claiming to be said person in the episode I used, & essentially told me to reach out to their lawyer because I do not have permission to use their name, I am going to be spending some time changing the story slightly.
          
          While I am skeptical of this comment (due to: bad punctuation, bad spelling, improper spelling of location, commenting instead of reaching out to me personally, & not providing any lawyer information), unfortunately this is causing me severe anxiety.
          
          So, for the next little while, I will be making changes to the names of all people who appear in episodes (with the exception of well known experts in the Paranormal field, such as Debby Constantino) to fictional names.
          
          These changes wonā€™t affect the storyline obviously, but just wanted those who reread the story to be aware why there are changes. I know having severe anxiety may seem like an extreme response, unfortunately itā€™s a part of who I am.
          
          To be honest, the past few weeks I have not even felt like continuing the story due to lack of interest on my part, & this ā€œincidentā€ almost had me deleting the story. I am afraid though if I were to delete the story, Iā€™d be making a rash decision, & would regret it tomorrow.
          
          Anyway, I know this isnā€™t vital information for you readers, but I do like to keep you informed. Thank you for your patience, & and for listening. Hope every one is well. 

MichelleBroome

@RandomHearts82 I'm sorry this is happening to you. I have always loved your stories here on wattpad. Do want you think is best. From your follower michelle broome.
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RandomHearts82

@GACJournal their profile was created minutes before the comment. I did as much research as I could into whether it could be the person or not, and I remain skeptical, but I couldnā€™t relax about it.
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AnnaPhoenix1994

I love how youā€™re skeptical of whatā€™s going on, but is still choosing to make the changes. You are such a sweet person and should be skeptical of the person doing this. Itā€™s highly unlikely this said person is on Wattpad reading a fanfic of Zak and coincidentally saw ā€œtheir episodeā€ in your chapter. Sounds like they just want to start trouble.
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