I am planning to write a book about my perspective of my life and how it turned out so far plus how I problem solve despite the fact that I have some on/off people who make things interesting like my sibling, family friend,  guys im planning to date, or family members.   I love my family but sometimes I wish they would give me the same kindness and understanding I give them. It's draining to deal with bickering, expecting me not to try to be more outgoing, and wanting me to reveal information about myself. I also want to get married and have a family one day but guys out here just don't have their finances together or don't see me as their only girl they have others sometimes. I am told I have histrionic disorder and NPD but I can still go to work and school. I can even work 2 jobs and go to school online.