.𝐋𝒚𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒆.♣

I want somebody to look at me like Zenitsu looks at Nezuko
          I want somebody to care about me like Sabito cares for Giyu
          I want somebody to be there for me like Tanjiro is there for, well, everyone
          I want somebody to want me like Sanemi wanted the demon slayer mark
          I want somebody to hold me like Obanai held Mitsuri
          I want to be somebody's first choice
          I want to be somebody's someone
          I want to love
          But I'm so fucking scared of it
          Its backfired countless times
          I want to love
          But I ruined it the last time I tried
          I want to love
          But I'm scared I won't be accepted
          I'm scared I'll be used again
          Manipulated again
          Backstabbed again
          Lied to again
          I want to love
          I really do
          I really try to
          But it's just me giving someone a gun and hoping they don't shoot me in the heart
          I want to be free
          To do what I want
          To do what I enjoy
          To be myself
          To not have to deal with.. everything
          I want to not be real
          I want to disappear, not permanently, but just go somewhere peaceful
          A clean field on a cliff, the sky pitch black, the stars and moon vibrant as ever, the clouds gone, the weather in the 60's, my comfort people around me
          That's what I want
          I want that so deeply
          But I can only wish for such a dream
          Because in the end, I want to love, but I failed at that miserably every time I had the chance
          So I'll just rot in my endless pool of emotions
          Waiting for the next chance I get
          To do things right
          And to love properly once more
          Without getting a knife shoved and twisted in my back

I want to go on the voice and sing girls by girl in red while I look at her standing behind the curtain, and my family to just to be flabbergasted that this is how I came out-
          
          I'm gay as fuck-
          
          S h i t t t t t t t-

"Are you okay?"
          
          BITCH NO-
          
          THIS FUCKING FANFIC JUST BROKE ME
          
          IT WAS FUNNY
          THEN IT GOT SERIOUS
          AND THEN I GOT TEARS
          AND THEN AHYHHDFBNKJIHDRDRCTVHJIJUGYFFDRSSRRDYGB
          
          THUS SHIT IS STUPID-
          
          I FUCKING LOVED IT THO
          
          ONE OF THE BEST FANFICS I'VE EVER READ
          
          I'M GONNA GO SOB SOME MORE NOW

In the words of my wife who's also my wife to be
          
          "ATTENTION HOES, BROS AND NON-BINARY HOES
          
          I NEED A DJ FOR MY WEDDING"

Hey curious question but do you have discord by chance? I made a Bok-su mood board that I wanted to show you 

I'm sorry but I think you might have a bigger streak then me lol

I'm literally being my fucking eyes out like a bunch its so stupid

I think I might relapse

i cant fucking do this shit anymore

THIS IS THE BOOK FOR MY W E D D I N G
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/401745293-my-wedding-%F0%9F%98%8D%F0%9F%92%95