SCARLETTXMACAW

4 months since the dream smp ended (ik ik im lateee srryyy)

SCARLETTXMACAW

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TW: suicide 
          
          
          The fact that i have always pretended that im okay, when im no. Yk funny bc ive only ever done that, its also like how some people say if you commit suicide, its selfish. WTFFFF. Thats not fucking selfish, its bc they hate there life, or things are just going wrong/bad. I WAS NINE. AND THNKING ABT SUICIDE. NINE. MY FUCKING STEPDAD SAID "if you take ur life that would be selfish"  Yes "JaSoN" people will miss you but its not selfish. (Please dont take your life you have so much to live for. And if you feel un-loved I love you, If you have no friends just message me, Im hear for you to talk to, I can also give you advise, or if you need to vent!)

SCARLETTXMACAW

When i first saw technos video I thought to myself " I know hes going to upload a video soon sying who he pranked the internet into thinking im dead" . And I thought it was true bc i know he would not die. I mean, his line was always "TECHNOBLADE NEVER DIES!" but, um, yeah. I really only stared to believe that, when all the tribes on my fyp. Um, but when i kinda realized about july 15th bc thats when i found out the wilbur had a dream with techno in it. But it really hit bc he was my childhood hero and i used to watch all of his videos when i was like 9-11 of something like that but,, im almost 14, so, yeah. Im okay! Im definitely not crying rn. But thats also why I havent posted anything at the moment so yeah.

SCARLETTXMACAW

ik how you feel, when I realized that he was actually gone I cried so much that day.
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Thatonekpopchick

@SCARLETTXMACAW  it feels crazy to me to think that he's been gone for almost a year now, I would watch his videos when I was nine or ten also and now I'm almost fifteen, its weird to me to think that someone I watched for more than five years, is gone
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SCARLETTXMACAW

I just realized I misspelled like to many words. um. sorry I just had a long day and tears are just all over my phone so. sowy
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SCARLETTXMACAW

now im watching maze runner 2! ehehehheehheheheheehehheehehheehhe. "HEH THAT ZOMBIE JUST CRUSHED TWO EGGS?!?!?! DO THEY DO THAT FOR FUN?!!?!" "Yeah, they do that for fun." ad philza and techno said, when the dream smp was still going.