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[VENT: If you are christian and get offended by slander of Christianity, please don't read this]
I love my mom but I FUCKING HATE HER SO MUCH. I finally get the fucking balls to come out to her, telling her "hey, I'm atheist and gay." And she talked to me about it, saying how god saved her and stupid shit.
NO ONE FUCKING CARES WHO SAVED YOU.
Then she starts to slander trans women, saying they'll never get their periods and shit even though they "act" like they do and fuckery.
A whole lotta time later, she starts showing me this guy on Tiktok who basically "Reality checks" Transwomen. And my mom acts so nice as I'm standing there.
Like, Leave fucking women alone! Transwomen are women. Now, My mom can have her opinions but what the fuck, man? Stupid ass shit.
It's fucking stupid. Fuck God. Fuck Jesus. Fuck all of the fucking bible. I wanted to tell her "This is fucking stupid, you called me out of my room, for this?!"
like she's a fucking bitch. Then, we act like everything is fine but everyday, I want to be like "Hey, My name is Ezekiel, not [Deadname]. And my pronouns are He/They." But I'm a fucking pussy to do it. My mother makes me want to fucking kill myself, because she will then act like I don't know shit! Like I fucking know a whole lot and if you would unclog the bullshit from your ears, You would hear my fucking opinion and realize I can have an actual conversation if you weren't such a goddamn whore.
And I want to act like I don't hate her, but when I'm alone, It fucking hurts to even think about why I can tolerate her.
I wanna get therapy as an excuse to find an outlet, because kickboxing and Jiu-jiutsu don't help my mood at her and I just need a fucking professional to help me figure oht how to fix my relationship with my mom without her being such a pain in the fucking asshole.