i don't really feel happy, but i also don't feel sad, but there's just this hollowness inside of me that i just can't get rid of. i would do anything to feel true emotions again, but it seems like they all left me alone. it's like everytime i'm with my friends, and they would tell a joke, i'll always find myself forcing a smile. i'd become quiet when they would talk about things, i feel like i'm invisible because i can't relate. i'm always thinking about sad stuff XD
sometimes i would feel like cutting myself, but then i think, 'if i cut myself, they would see it and think that i'm just doing it for attention purposes' this is why i never share my problems with anyone, they would think i'm an attention-seeker. i mostly keep them to myself. i can't talk to my family about it, because they would say, 'oh you're too young to have depression. it's just temporary sadness.'
it's like i'm all alone.. and all i wanted was someone to see the broken girl behind all the facade she's been putting up..
-i'm sorry for annoying you :) i just needed to get it out of my chest.