Hi! Normally I'm not a person to comment, but I had to do it anyway. If you ever feel the need to disappear, then do so. Your mental health comes first. I know writing helps you to cope with everything, but it also can be overwhelming. Take the time for yourself, to heal. They all say, time makes up for everything. It doesn't. Pain will stick with you, but over the years it will lessen. I lost my grandma 11 years ago and I still tear up when I think about her. But I do it with a smile. Cause I know she will never be back, but she watches me from afar. A lesson that I've learned so far: Death doesn't pick any flower, they pick the most precious, the one's which means the most to us.
If you need anything, don't hesitate to reach out.
P.S. Don't pressure yourself about bring out new chapters. We all know life can be difficult, overwhelming and not so glory like the TV shows. Think about yourself first.