Spookey

ARE YOU KIDDING ME, I MISSED 69 FOLLOWERS

Hey I like ur pfp

How does my wattpad only have 20 follower less than my twitch...

I forgot to click the announce thing on my last post thingy and I don't feel like rewriting it, if you could check the last post that would be cool, but you don't have to

Personal rant type thing I guess:
          
          Okay, so recently I've had an experience that can only be explained as a hyperfixation. I couldn't really focus on anything else and only really felt at peace when somehow doing something that included the thing. I literally wrote an entire fucking oneshot in 3 hours, when I haven't written anything in months. The problem here is that I don't feel like I can describe it as a hyperfixation, because I'm probably not neurodivergent.
          
          Actually I've felt like I might be neurodivergent for over 2 years now, but the thought just kinda fades after a while, until something happens that makes me wonder again. In the past 9 months I've noticed a couple of things, focusing is difficult (I will ask them a question and just not hear the answer, because I immeadiately zoned out, overall I tend to zone out quite a bit. I can also be pretty forgetful and shit at organization, but thats probably because of the lockdown. Recently I've been a lot more fidgety and stuff, flapping my hands whenever I'm happy or using a fidget spinner when nervous or needing to focus. A couple of the online tests that I took said that I might have add, but I'm scared I'm overexetturating (how do you spell this word-) the answers I some way.
          
          It's just really frustrating, because I've always done well in school and mostly because of that, have always been told that I'm neurotypical.  At this point I really don't fucking know and it's passing me off.
          
          If you've read this entire thing, you're amazing <3 (if you haven't you're amazing too, I just needed to get this off my chest)
          

Yall know the oneshot I posted on ao3 8 hours ago? ITS HAS 132 KUDOS AND I DO NOT KNOW WHY, ITS SUPER COOL 'N SHIT, BUT HOW- anyway, I'll post it on here in a bit

I'll post a ranboo oneshot tomorrow (wow, spookey writing something? Truly unheard of) I already posted it on ao3, but I want to share it with you as well :)

So today I learned my grandfather is probably homophobic...
          
          Who's gonna tell him that he has a flamingly homosexual grandchild? It sure has he'll ain't gonna be me.

I want to come out as gender non-conforming to my friends, but I also don't, because it's scary and I feel like I may be lying to them (if I actually turn out to be cis... small chance). Any advice?

I have 50 followers, which I think is pretty cool :)