TIMMYAINTITT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TECHNOBLADE, MY KING!!! WE LOVE AND MISS YOU ❤️❤️

TIMMYAINTITT

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I want to say this about the Wilbur situation.
          
          I can't be happy anymore. Ever since I found out, my heart hurts every time I hear his name. I loved that man. I have since I was 9. His music was my safe space from my abusive household. I can't find happiness in life anymore. The more time goes by, the more it hurts. It hurts so fucking bad. My mental health is decreasing every day. I wish I could hate him, for Shelby. But god, it hurts. I can't hate him. Life isn't fair. It's horrible. Biting is one of my stims, but my friends have been yelling at me, telling me I'm "just like him". I can't be myself anymore. I've been on the edge of tears everyday. It's almost my birthday. I don't think I'm celebrating this year. 
          
          I love Shelby, she's amazing and I remember her from Max and Ross's videos. I started watching the dsmp after one of my ex-best friends told me about it. I immediately felt an attachment to Wilbur and his content. He was sweet and cared about his followers and fans. I would watch his streams when I slept. I don't think I can ever take myself from his content. I won't watch his videos, but I do watch the fan videos because it's so hard to move on. I've been a fan of Shelby longer than Wilbur, but started drifting away from Mithzan and Shelby. I haven't watched her in over a year and I can't find myself watching her without crying my eyes out. Wilbur's music makes me so emotional knowing that he probably won't be making alot more. 
          
          If anyone is ever experiencing any type of abuse or depression, feel free to dm me. I love y'all.