Here's a little PSA for those in a similar situation..
I grew up putting others emotions before my own. As I grew up I started to realize that and it's only been recently (last 2 years) that I have finally put my own needs, thoughts, and actions first. As, I started college back again, I have gotten a few guys trying to ask me out (oh, boo hoo right?). My mom said I should give it a chance, however I've have this mentality.
I can barely keep myself in check, much less another person. I can't handle another persons emotions... Which is ten times worse if I was in a relationship that requires it. They don't deserve me not responding because I feel weird. So, I've been trying to see how wrong that may be. In the eyes of my mother, she wants me to put my self first. That's what she told me. "They can handle their own emotions," she also said.
However, growing up with people NOT handling their own emotions and putting it on a child is sure to drive me away. I act this way because it's who I am and then I get hated on for it. I go back to handling others emotions and get ridiculed for that too. Is there a fine line I'm missing? No.
In order for me to feel comfortable, I need to handle myself first. Even if that means saying no. It took me to long to realize that... You don't need a relationship. You don't need it. That could just be me but... You're not obligated to have a boyfriend or girlfriend or whatever... Be who YOU want to be. Not what others want you to be.
Thank you for coming to my Ted talk ^-^
