Just a weird person in a depressing weird world. Living a life they don't wanna live but can't get out of life because they care so much about their loved ones. Doesn't wanna leave behind their love of their life because that will break a promise. They won't be forgiven for the stress they made their lover feel. They're sorry for it but can't get a response less depressing than their lover being in so much pain and heartbreak. Can't fix or help with anything, left feeling useless. Wants to die and get out of this crippling depression pain but has so much to live for. So much happiness they could've felt but they chose not to feel it. One person makes them truly happy but broke their heart more than once. Everyone in their life wants to kill themselves and they can't make their lives better to the point they'd wanna live for him. So much pain and stress and negativity going on in their life that they can't change because they self-doubt themselves. Truly loves someone but can't find a way to help. Needs help but doesn't have the nerve to get a therapist or anything 'cause they're scared to talk about everything they've been thinking of. Loves their family but can't get them to love him back. Loves others but doesn't love himself. Happiness is ruined for him and people can bring up a subject and it might make him remember the trauma and the pain he once had. Needs someone to love him and make him feel loved but he'll never really feel it. Everyone will leave him in the end and he knows that. Fake smiles but wants someone to realize he's wanting to cry and he's breaking and dying inside.